Midnight lies

Chapter 3

Sleep did eventually come, ten minutes before my alarm goes off. It's crazy how you can be fully asleep, in a deep sleep for all of ten minutes. I jolt awake and can feel my heart racing, must have been dreaming, shame I can't always remember any part of a dream but I can feel the after effects nonetheless.

I lay in bed for what feels like an hour just staring at the ceiling, trying to piece together what happened the night before. After a strong attempt with no success I get out of bed to make some coffee, lord knows I'll need it today. Today is birthday lunch with mum, I have no idea how I'm supposed to focus on anything other than what I saw or thought I saw last night. Mum will be able to tell something is wrong, she always can. It's a special gift mums have, they just know when something isn't quite right, usually this is a blessing but today it will feel like a curse.

As it's only always been mum and me, she can read me like a book, she knows the deepest parts of me, this is why I tend to keep visits to a bare minimum. Today is mums day and I am going to try my very best to make sure it's a good one.

I check my phone for any messages whilst drinking my second cup of filter coffee, knowing mum, she would have messaged me confirming our lunch date. As expected, mum asks for a confirmation and this is given. There wouldn't be any other messages, I don't have many friends who would want to get in touch, no boyfriend either for that matter. I have flings every so often, to feel something. The flings are almost always unavailable men (some married), best way to get what I need without the possibility of commitment.

Approaching 11am and lunch with mum is at 2pm, best start to get myself ready. I pour myself one more cup of coffee and head to the bathroom for a shower.