between two worlds ¡ 황현진

013: trust

"Do you think Hyunjin and that Haerin girl will be a couple?'

"Is that her?"

"That's Haerin Kang."

"Isn't that Kang Younghyun's sister?"

"Rumour has it, she asked Younghyun to add her in the webtoon."

"Who is she to be part of Lies in the City?"

"She's pretty I guess..."

"Will she end up with Felix or Hyunjin?"

All the malicious comments Yeojin and Ryujin showed me when I came to school. I didn't ask Jihoon to be in it, it just happened. Why would people think that? Okay, I am Younghyun's sister but I'm not that insane. I want to keep my hood all day without people giving me a dirty look. I want to hide. I kept some of my bangs in my face so no one would notice it was me. I can't believe it. It wasn't my fault that I saw Hyunjin and you didn't. I don't know if I'll end up with any of them. I'm probably just a random character that was added. I wish I got a text from Younghyun. Well, I can't because Hyunjin took my PHONE. 

"Are you okay?" Younghyun would probably ask but Whatever. I don't want to do anything. I go to the school computers and I read the anonymous school posts. It's about me. What do I do? There's nothing I can do. What a disaster. I can't even eat lunch at the cafeteria without being looked at or hearing gossip about me. I packed my own lunch this morning so I can just eat at the rooftop with myself. The bell rang for lunch so I went straight to the school rooftop. I opened my bag and took out my lunch. Two triangle kimbap and some strawberry milk. 

So I sat down in the thrown away desks and ate my lunch. I wonder if my friends are concerned, probably not. They asked for spoilers, not me being a character in it. I put my hood on and kept eating like anyone would notice I'm up here. The only thing they'll notice is that I'm trying to make myself famous and I want to be popular blah blah blah. Who cares anyway. I finished my strawberry milk and threw it in my bag. I check the lockers that were thrown away. Me and my friends stored stuff up there. Like extra uniforms. So I opened the one I stored my things in. I had 2 blazers in there. I stole them from the lost and found, no one's using them so why not take them instead. They come in handy especially when a guy saved you from a car throws your school blazer in the trash can behind a hospital.

I took the blazer and put it on. I took my nametag and put it on the blazer. I took off the hoodie Felix gave me and put it in my bag. The bell rang, so I went back to class. I took my bag, closed the locker and went off. I had my head down walking out. I hit my head somewhere. Aw, that hurt. I look up, it's Sunwoo. He appeared with a playful smile, I rolled my eyes and walked past him. He went in front of me and blocked my way. Geez, can't he just move and let me go to class? I stepped to my left, he went in blocking my way. Then to my left, he blocked me again. I pushed him and went off. I don't have time for any of his jokes right now. I wanted to cry as soon as I came into the classroom. 

We did whatever we always did. It was break and my friends and I went back to the rooftop. They made me sit down on the desk I always sit on. I sat there with my arms crossed. Yeojin and Ryujin were walking back and forth thinking. Junkyu was reading the webtoon and kept looking from his phone to my face. Haknyeon was writing things down. I don't even have my phone with me and I forgot about something. I forgot that Younghyun was my cousin and my "parents" are my aunt and uncle. 

My real parents live in Japan and decided to drop me off to their apartment then abandon me because they had "no money" to raise me. If my mom was a nurse and if my dad was a police officer, why didn't they have enough money to raise me? Did they not want me? I can see why they didn't want me, I wouldn't want me either. Why is it like this? People hide stuff from me, I hide stuff from them. I'm starting to cry. Crying over people who don't love me and are across the world from me. I put my hand in a fist and punched the locker I stored my things in. I stood there like frozen ice melting slowly. Tears coming out from my eyes, like melting ice. I want all of this to stop.

"Stop it," I told them, you can hear the pain in my voice

"Hyerin, are you okay?" Junkyu came over and pat my shoulder

"Do you think I am?" I cried "How would it feel like if you found out your older brother is actually your cousin and your parents are your aunt and uncle? Then your actual parents are across the world and don't know how you're doing and then people are spreading rumours about you."

"Hyerin.." Yeojin hugged me

I kept crying in their arms. Why did it turn out like this?

"Wait Hyerin," Junkyu paused, "You asked us if you were insane for seeing Hyunjin, remember?"

I nodded

"You did." he explained "You went in and out of the webtoon,"

"Uh-huh." I nodded along "This is why.. I ASKED YOU GUYS IF I WAS CRAZY AND YOU GUYS WERE LIKE "yOu wErE alreADy psYchO" YOU WHORES." 

"So you did see Hyunjin in real life!" He burst out cheering, I covered his mouth

"Be quiet Junkyu!" I started to smile a bit "Don't tell anyone this please?"

We all got together and the group hugged. I felt a bit better but it doesn't mean I'm not in pain. My friends cheer me up, but I have to talk to them about it. It's been on my mind for a while. I should ask my mom or should I say, aunt? 

School was over, my friends comforted me till the way home. I went to my room and went to my computer. Still, more malicious comments about me. I changed and went to lay on my bed. I hid in the covers and cried. I am pretty weak. If Soojin finds out about this, I'm dead. I started wimping even more. I hid more of myself in the bedsheets. I should get over it. It's been days and I need to get it off my mind. I'll mention it during dinner then. I did my homework to kill time. I heard the door open, Younghyun came home from somewhere. My cousin came from Cram school. We have it on different days. He arrives with his aunt and uncle. They cooked dinner and called me to eat. I looked like a mess coming out of my room. They were talking about stuff. About someone being dead and that they need to tell me something. I don't know what exactly. I stayed behind my bedroom door and they kept talking. 

They mentioned that plane crash from years ago. It's about someone from Canada who has died and it's been 10 years since they died. I heard the names, Donghae Nam and Junghwa Seo. Then I remember, I heard of them but I don't remember when. I thought about more, no way. My parents? I listened closely, they were saying stuff like "We should have told Hyerin about this." I feel broken. Younghyun was shocked too. It looked like they had hidden it from him too. Ever since reading that letter, I thought I would see them again but I was wrong. I didn't even know what they looked like. I wonder if they mentioned anything about me. My whole life, I never heard of them once. They never called me to see if I was doing well in school. They never got to see me graduate Elementary and Middle School. Now they won't see me walk on that stage and graduate high school. Now I know, it starts to get worse every minute I listen to the conversation.

Is that the reason why Younghyun had that storyline for Hyunjin? TO pity me? So that people feel bad for me and pity afterwards? He made me and Hyunjin so alike, I just added Yeji. He looked disappointed listening to his parents talk. Do I even want to eat dinner with liars? Now that I figured out that my parents are actually dead and I can't see them. I want to time travel and ask them if I can contact them or do something with them. There must have been a reason why my real parents ran away and left me here. Being a doctor and a police officer in South Korea is a good enough job to raise a child, so why didn't they keep me? It hit me now. That one phrase hit me.

"I don't get it!" Younghyun's voice got louder "Why can't you just tell Hyerin? We made her live under a lie her whole life!"

"I just can't tell her that they're dead Younghyun! Can't you understand?" My mom screamed back at him

I'm coming out. I want the truth.

"Who's dead?" I come out of my bedroom

"Hyerin-" she asked, with a shocked face

"Who's dead?!" 

a/n! hi bros it's been a while lmao. school's been shitty so yeah. anyway happy new year, i hope 2021 treats us well. anyway pretend this is not taking 18376527468374671547867582635 years to update. hope ur enjoying it :]