Forgive but don't forget

Midnight Messages

I had been tossing and turning about breaking up with him. I mean he was good for a holiday fling but I guess I wasn't all that into him. I know that sounds super shitty of me. I had told James about my doubts and he had told me to go with my gut but it wasn't until 12am, Midnight, he had told me he liked me. 

James was my past. He was the first and only guy I've ever fallen for and I wasn't over him. If I was then I wouldn't keep going back. 

So I told him how I felt. Was it wrong? Probably but I loved him and nothing else mattered. So I dumped my current boyfriend at the time and it felt good. I had of course dumped him before getting with James. I mean I make mistakes but cheating is a new level that I wouldn't dare cross. So I sent him a message saying how we didn't vibe. Which mind you was true. He kept asking to call and I don't know why but it really scared me (probably from past toxic relationships haha). He got mad which was understandable.

But I was happy for the first time in about a year and to me that's what mattered. I didn't care that I would be judged or anything. For once I let myself be caught up in the moment.