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eight; pain

entry eleven:

yesterday was the most embarrassing day ever. i never thought jake would put me on the spot like that, in front of everyone. even my first love. i don't think anyone noticed how i was wearing the bracelet he gave me. even though me and him aren't together, i still say "happy (number) anniversary" i keep track of the days we could've been. i revived a message from someone after the whole chaos thing in the dressing room, he/she is a private account. i don't think i wanna talk to anyone from social media again.. now that i know what the outcome is.

- park sunghoon -

irene

baby, what're we doing today? -

- nothing? why?

let's go out then -

- no. i'm not in the mood for that

are you still upset about yesterday? -

- i'm not upset, i'm just thinking to myself

you don't need her or him. you have me and that's all you need in life -

- why did you come back into my life? why did you have to come back to korea, if you didn't come back.. me and byeol would've been married by now instead of me and you. irene you're my friend, i've never thought of you more than that. just because my father loves you, it doesn't mean i do.

you told you loved me and you wanted to see me. i have the conversations too. you even held me close like how you held byeol before she met your parents -

- how did you even know byeol was meeting my parents?

i have people sunghoon. don't think you're slick, if i see you near byeol.. speaking to her, i will show her our conversations while you were with her -

- clearly all you know how to do is fucking blackmail and use me! ME! i have done nothing to you BUT be a good friend

the thing you did wrong was choose her. -

- then why come back if you knew you were gonna be the second option. you were never first place.