Sirius blacks daughter

Chapter 25

|A few days later|

You had left a note and put it on your pillow but what you didn't know is after you snuck out someone was following you

You get somewhere you thought no people were and then as you were gonna use a spell your wand was grabbed out of your hands you look over shocked and see Fred "Ok what the hell y/n!" He says and you looked shocked

"Let me die! I can't handle life anymore it's too hard my world is falling apart and I'm too beaten down to carry on anymore life is too hard I can't do this anymore I can't feel anything I just wanna feel something!!!" You say and he shakes his head

"I'm sorry but no." He says and you glare at Fred

"How did you even find me." You ask and he pulls up a map the marauders map the one he gave to Harry a long time ago why does he have it?

"This actually I borrowed it from Harry because I needed to sneak somewhere for a prank me and George were planning on doing, then I see you walking around on the map and followed you." He says and you roll your eyes

"And you care why? Why do you care that I was gonna die I can't do it anymore! I can't live anymore my mind is too much I can't handle the voices anymore I just want them to be quiet!!!! Please someone quiet them!!!!!" You say crying and suddenly his lips were on yours and you just stood their like you have forgotten what a kiss even is you just looked confused

He pulls away and sighs "Does that answer anything." He says and you shake your head

"No, it doesn't sorry I can't feel happiness anymore or love I lost those emotions, now give me my wand and let me go I just want the noise to stop! I want the pain to just stop already I'm too broken to carry on I'm better off gone I can't do this anymore! I can't fight my own mind anymore it's getting too tiring and too much. Like I'm crazy I truly am! And I just want to end it already end all my pain with two words and it's gone why won't you let me? Do you hate that much? I just wanna be with my mom again someone who actually loves me." You say and he shakes his head as now even Fred was crying from what you said he felt so bad for you, you were so broken and beaten down by the world that you think this is your only way out when it's not!

"No, no this ain't your only way out y/n your amazing and beautiful and smart and your mind isn't right your worth everything, you won't believe me but you are and always will be, dying isn't the only way out you'll get better I know you will please stay strong and keep fighting, I'll always be here for you even if you hate me forever." He says and then he grabs your hand and pulls you off as you were trying to fight him

He avoided teachers thankfully thanks to the map and you just blankly followed him as he pulled you with him 'I don't wanna live in a world where a father doesn't love his own daughter and loves someone else's kid more I can't handle this, I know my mom would always love me I just wanna be with her.'