Mine

Chapter 5

I woke up the following morning with Bea in my arms, it was one of those nightmare less nights thankfully.bi carefully unwrapped myself from Bea, being careful not to wake her up, then heading to the front lounge finding all the girls there. When I entered Camila's eyes were blood shot red, and were fixed on her phone, the rest gave me a death glare besides Dinah. I gave them a half smile then made waffles for every one, they may not be talking to me but come on they have to eat.

While I was putting the batter in the waffle maker I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and a head resting on my back belonging to a small figure.

"Morning" I heard Bea say behind me with a sigh. I could feel everyone's eyes burning into my skin.

"Can you help me out?" I asked Bea

"Mmm I don't know I really comfortable right here"

"Come on pleeeeeease"

"Okay, what do I need to do"

"Can you mix the stuff in the bowl?"

"Yea" she said and let go of me. At the corner of my eye I saw Camila get up from where she was sitting and crawl into her bunk. Believe me Cam this hurts just as much as it hurts you.

•••

"Cami" I said softly, Camila was still in her bunk and she didn't come out to eat so I brought her food. "Cam?" I said and moved the curtain seeing Camila's back facing me with her head phones on. "Cam" I said and shook her slightly. She let out a soft moan then rubbing her eyes and let out a yawn. Oh god she looks like a puppy. "You didn't eat so I umm brought you something" I said giving her a half smile.

"Thank you" she told me and I gave her another half smiled before leaving her alone. "she hates me" I sighed plopping down on the couch next to Dinah while the others were in the back lounge.

"She doesn't she's just hurt. You have to tell her about the whole you and Bea thing"

"I want to Dinah but I can't I already risked so much by telling you"

"Then why did you?"

"Well I don't know...maybe for the fact to gave me this" I told her pointing to my black eye. "And for the fact you wanted to kill me"

"You have to tell her, trust me before she does something stupid"

•••

"So we are here with y/n and Bea here the newly out couple, how are you two?" The interviewer asked.

"Great were amazing" I smiled

"So you two practically dropped the bomb on your fandoms with your posts with each other on Instagram" she told us. Bea and I were sitting next to each other with my arm wrapped over her shoulder.

"Well we were tired of hiding our relationship for so long, and there wasn't really anyway we could do it with doing something else" I lied.

"So how long have you guys been in your relationship?"

"We were on and off for about six months and now we've been together for a a while" Bea lied.

"I honestly don't know how I was able to let this amazing girl go" I smiled and kissed her forehead.

"Aww y/s/n"

•••

I was doing my sound check in jogger shorts and a black tank top, we were in San Jose and Bea was going back to LA after tonight.

"So do you wanna do the new song or the too much cover?" Sky asked me

"I honestly wanna do the new one tonight" she nodded then walked off to the side of the stage.

"Little do you know
How I'm breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know
I'm still haunted by the memories
Little do you know
I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece

Little do you know
I need a little more time

Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight

Little do you know
I need a little more time

I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me

Little do you know
I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Little do you know
I'm trying to make it better piece by piece

Little do you know
I love you 'til the sun dies

Oh wait, just wait
I love you like I've never felt the pain,
Just wait
I love you like I've never been afraid,
Just wait
Our love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me

I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Lay your head on me
So lay your head on me

'Cause little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies" by the time I finished singing I had a few tears escaping my eyes. Since that was the last song of my soundcheck I just walked off the stage without saying anything. When I got off the stage I made eye contact with Camila who was getting ready for her soundcheck, she looked at me sympathetically. Which I honestly hated because I don't like people feeling bad for me. I walked off to my dressing and stayed there until it was actually time for me to get ready.

•••

"Y/n I have great news" Sky said walking into the bus.

"What is it?" I asked

"Ariana Grande what's to do a song with you" she said excitedly

"Really that's awesome!"

"We have to head to LA tonight and we'll be out there for a couple weeks"

"What about the tour?"

"You'll come back on it after you guys finish the song. You down?"

"Yea"

"Great now go get packed we're leaving in two hours" I nodded then she walked out of the bus. I sighed then walked to the back lounge to get most of my clothes packed.

"You're leaving?" I heard someone ask while I was almost finished packing. I looked up and saw Camila looking hurt.

"No. Ariana wants to do a song with me so I'm gonna be in LA for a while but I'll come back after the songs finished"

"Were you even planning to say goodbye" she said with anger in her voice

"It was last minute, and why are you mad? We" I said motioning the space between us. "Aren't talking, you're mad at me remember"

"I was never mad. Hurt yes mad no"

"I'm sorry Cam I truly am" I said and walked over to her. "It was never my intention to hurt you"

"Then why did you?"

"Because I'm stupid, and always cared to tell someone my true feelings that I feel for them" I said honestly.

"Y/N come on we got a plane to catch" Sky said barging in.

"I'll be right there" she nodded before going outside.

"Please don't go" she said with tears filling her eyes

"I don't really want to but I don't really have a choice. When I get back we can pick things up where we left off, I promise" I told her, pulling into a hug, then pulled away while I felt a kiss on her forehead. I grabbed my suitcase then kissed Camila's cheek before leaving the bus.