I can still remember the time when a glimpse of you from afar can radiate the happiness in my being.
I can still remember the time when our eyes do the talking as we stare at each other.
I can still remember the time when I took a detour just so we can cross paths.
I can still remember the time when I subtly went to your working area just to catch your attention.
I can still remember the time when I finally got to know your name.
I can still remember everything like it just happened yesterday...
The worry etched in me when you are traveling.
The sadness that enveloped me knowing I had to wait another week to see you.
The anger that I felt when you aren't taking care of yourself.
The excitement because I know you are waiting for me as I finish my review.
The longing whenever we are video-calling.
The happiness that washed over me when I finally see you physically.
Those times... those moments... those days... I regret it all now.
I regret not talking to you when I had my chance.
I regret not walking towards you instead of letting you pass me by.
I regret not introducing myself to you personally.
I regret not making a move when you are near to me.
I regret not doing anything because I waited for you to make a move.
Because right now, all I remember is pain.
How you sounded when you kept on apologizing to me for choosing your baby.
How you sounded when you felt helpless in your situation.
How you sounded when you said you liked me more than you should.
How you sounded when you tried to make it light when it was the opposite.
How you sounded when you had to say goodbye.
It was difficult to let go when that person was part of the future you are planning.
I was thankful I met you.
I was thankful you reciprocated my feelings.
I was thankful I got the chance to know you, your flaws and your everything.
I was thankful I was able to talk to you.
I was thankful because you came into my life.
And now that you belong to your wife's arms, I wish you nothing but happiness.
I wish she would care for you like how I did.
I wished she would love you like how I showed you.
I wished she would stay like how I wanted to stay in your life.
This is me, saying goodbye.
This is me, promising I would live for myself now.
This is me, closing this chapter of my life.
