The Other Side Of Me

Part VII

I sat in the driver seat of my car  trying to control my breathing. My heart was racing and I actually felt dizzy.

Why did I have to run into them now?

Looking at my trembling  hands I rubbed them against the fabric of my pants in a desperate attempt to stop the shaking.

The car roared as I turned the key.

I need to get out of here!

Just in that moment the door of the building opened and Jackson came storming out, looking left and right.

I put the car in reverse the second he spotted me and backed out of the parking space, nearly causing an accident. He yelled after me but I couldn't hear what he was saying.
I convinced myself it was for the better.

"He didn't say anything?"

"I don't think anyone recognized me at first."

"Then why did Jackson follow you outside?"

I shrugged although she couldn't see me. "They probably asked, and Eric mentioned my name."

"Probably. So why didn't you stay? Why didn't you hear him out?"

"And what good would that do? What could he possibly have to say to me?"

"If you had stayed you wouldn't be wondering now. You would know!"

"I don't want to know. I'm afraid of what he might have said to me. What if he isn't as mad at me as I think? What if he said that he missed me? I couldn't handle that."

"Okay. If you don't want to know what he has to say you need to let it go. Stop thinking about him."

"I haven't been able to all this time. What makes you think I could do it now?"

"Jenny..."

"I know I'm going in circles. I know it's frustrating to listen to my ramblings. I appreciate you being there for me though."

"Call me whenever you want to talk okay?"

"Yes."

"Love you sis."

~

What happened earlier?

I got the text from Eric seconds after I hung up on my sister.

I mean...I know what happened. Jackson told me a while ago.

Why? How? What were the odds of these two knowing each other?

We're good friends. Of course. Out of all the people it had to be him.

Are you okay? 

He continued texting while I tried to wrap my mind around it.

I'm fine. 

I lied, partly because I didn't want to talk about it further, and partly because I didn't want to discuss this with Eric. We haven't known each other for long, he and I were in a business relationship and, most importantly, he was Jackson's friend. He would take his side naturally, so no matter what I said he wouldn't understand my reasoning.

Well Jack's not. He told me he chased after you but you took off.

I stared at the message for what felt like hours. Part of me wanted to know the reason. 

Was he going to forgive me? But why would he do that? I broke his heart! 

Another part of me though knew that it was too late to fix the mistakes I made.