I walked up to the patch of grass, the one my true love was buried a few years before.
Wiping a tear off my cheek I spoke.
"H-hey sweetheart. You're 30 today.", I smiled sadly. "I bet you already know. You're probably partying with the other angels and having great time."
I sat down on the grass.
"I want you to know something, Pj proposed to Chris about a week ago. It was cute, but not as cute as you were when you proposed to me. I wish it was us, but- it isn't. We never got to have our wedding."
I set down a blue flower.
"I brought this for you. I knew how much you loved the color of these flowers. You told me on our first date."
Tears were rolling down my face like crazy. I didn't care enough to wipe them off.
"I miss you so much, honey. I sometimes cuddle with you're blanket at night. I-it's the closest thing I have to you."
"You're mother took the news really hard when you passed. I try to visit her everyday, but somedays it's like she's breathing but not alive."
The rain an wind started to pick up, but I didn't care.
"I'm going to join you. I have nothing to live for without you. So why should I?"
I pulled a bottle of pills out of my pocket.
"I'll see you soon Phil. I love you."
