LOVING MUNA[COMPLETED]

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MONA'S POV (Rita ora--let you love me)
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"Mona I want you to know that I'm gonna wait for you. I'll wait till you stop pretending you don't need anyone. I'll wait untill you decide to swallow your pride. Baby I'm here. I'll always be here. I'm standing here naked because I know you're worth it. I'm trying with you because I love you. And don't you forget that"

He leaves before I say anything back.

Immediately Travis left I slipped to the floor in tears. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why won't I believe he truly loves me?.

I don't know why I won't let him in. Maybe I am scared of falling in love? Or maybe I just don't wanna be with him?.

No. I did want to be to be with him. I just can't. His past words kept ringing in my head.

He said he'll wait for me. How's he so sure I'll return his feelings? Do I really have too much pride to admit I do...love him?.

I bawled.

After crying for a while I stood up from the floor and went in to my bedroom. I was tired and I needed a nap.

Before going to sleep I looked at my baby's picture again. I smiled,but it dropped when I remembered Travis.

"I'll wait for you.baby I'm here. I'll always be here.".

I smiled.

True to his words,when I woke up from my nap Travis called. I hesitated in answering the call but I did anyway.

"Hello?" My voice was croaky and I cringed.

"Hi.....are you ok?" I melted at the worry in his voice.

"Yeah....I'm ok" I nodded clearing my throat.

It was quiet on both ends. I bit my lip nervously.

"I'm sorry" I whispered.

"For what?" He questioned.

"I don't know. Everything?" I said,biting my lip.

He chuckled softly and I swooned.

"No. I'm sorry for rushing you." He apologizes.

"No you didn't. It's just......I'm not ready" I say slowly.

"I get it" it was quiet again.

"So..... friends?" He asked.

"Yes. Friends" I agreed.

"You sure you're ok?" He asked again.

"Yeah I'm fine" I giggled.

"Ok. Bye?"

"Yeah bye" I hung up.

That went well. I went downstairs to pass time by watching TV. I just realized I have no social life.

Well I had a social life untill my only friend betrayed me. I wonder where she is. I haven't seen her since our run in and frankly i didn't want to see her again.

I can't believe she bore micheal a son. And amara is openly dating him. I can't even bring myself to care. I'm just surprised at it all.

I bit my lip at the sudden idea that struck me. Should I call him?. I mean I kicked him out of my house why do I suddenly want him back?

I must be really lonely. I am lonely but I don't feel that way with him. If I had just him I would be content and that scares me.

It scares me that in such a short period of time I already want and need him as much as I do right now.

I grabbed my phone and paced around my living room. It's just a stupid phone call Mona!

Fine. I'm doing it.

I jumped when the phone started ringing in my hand. I calmed my racing heart but it picked up again when I saw who was calling.

It was him.

I just stood there staring at the phone while it rang and rang till it stopped. I cursed at myself.

It began ringing again and I quickly answered it before I changed my mind.

"Hi!" I squeaked out,cringing at my high pitched voice. I sounded like I was going to piss myself.

"Hey. Erm. Can I come over?. I promise I won't try anything I just need a place to stay. I'll explain better when I see you" he rushes out.

"Er. Sure." I bit my lip.

Why do I feel so disappointed when he said he wouldn't do anything? Did I want him to do something??.

"Thank you Mona" after that he hung up and I slumped on my couch and blew out a breath.

That was intense.

Before he came I decided to make lunch. I made some pasta and sauce with meatballs.

A few minutes after I was done my door bell rang. I quickly wiped my hands with a rag and strutted to the door.

I flung it open with a smile on my face.

"Hey" I say staring at Travis.

He was still wearing what he wore before and he had a duffel bag slung on his shoulder.

"Come in" I gestured.

He smiled and walked in. I locked the door behind him

"So? Wanna explain better?"I asked.

"Yeah. So I bought a house in banana island but they're some.... complications so I need a place to stay for now till it's sorted" he sat on the couch.

"Why did you buy a house in Nigeria?" I frowned.

"To be closer to you" he shrugged.

I blushed, fighting the stupid smile that threatened to show.

"Ok" was all I said.

He smiled back enhancing his handsome features. Has he always been this attractive???.

"Wanna have lunch with me? I made pasta" I offered walking into the kitchen.

"Sure. I'd love to"He followed me.

He helped me set the table and we dug in.

"God. This pasta's really good" he moaned.

"Nah. You're just saying that" I shyly said.

"No I'm not it's really good" he gobbled it up asking for more.

"Slow down Travis. You're gonna choke!" I scolded.

"Sorry" he blushed and I couldn't help the laugh that bubbled up.

"You have a little something there" I pointed to his cheek.

He tried cleaning it off but he constantly missed. I sighed grabbing the napkin from him,deciding to do it myself.

I stood up from my chair,leaning into him to clean it off. I suddenly noticed our close proximity and I swallowed.

He also had sauce on his lips. I watched as his tongue slowly licked his sauce clad lips.

I bit my lip unconsciously. For a second I thought he was gonna kiss me and I was gonna kiss back. Like always.

He turned his head, leaning away from me. I had to stop the hurt and disappointed that bubbled in my chest.

This was what I wanted. Right?.

I asked for this so then why was I so disappointed by my own decision?.

I bit my lip and continued eating but slowly I lost my appetite.

I looked at him again and slowly smiled as he kept eating my food.

He'll wait.

*****Thanks for reading!

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