I'm very happy I got to meet you but I myself is slowly braking down and going crazy.I have gotten to the point were nothing means to me and just want to end it all.Well if I did get to that point,I'm sorry I couldn't take it know more from the guilt,lies,and memorys my family gave me for who I am/was.They send me to this world where I let myself give up and just let make me happy afterwards.I knew I always wanted this,I knew it would have came sooner or later.Everyone knew they should have aborted me when the doctor told my mom or when they asked her to pull the plug on me.But they left me here to suffer everything I caused and I suffered enough to the point were I will be happy.But don't let that saint that said,"All bad people commit suicide and go to hell."Don't believe in that because thats wrong.Look at me I was a nice person and I commited suicide but it doesn't mean I'm going to heaven or hell.All I really wanted was for someone to here me and let me finally be happy.I will be happy with my uncle and cousin out there in the world exploring.Well this is my good bye until we meet again.I finally surrender and let the people that haunted my head win.I'm finally going to let everyone forget about me and think it was just a nightmare.And I'm finally going to erase the memories of me being a bother to my family.Well good bye.Please don't be sad and be happy I finally finished what I started and finally am happy.
