Lonely Heart

I. Thoughts

'Have you ever felt like you could just disappear and no one would even care?'

'I did, and I still do, feeling like everyone is slipping away from me, like I am left all alone, like no one notices me or my feelings, like they would never miss someone like me...like I don't even exist. They don't care, they don't see me for who I really am, for them I'm just another stranger even if they call themselves my "friends" or "family" those are just empty words. In this world I only exist for myself but that...can't be called existence.'

'From the very beginning destiny decides in our place, who is popular, who isn't, who gets friends easily and who doesn't. I have always been the kind who had to work to make friends, and even when I do it's no good. Everywhere I go there are this groups of people that only care about themselves, I am somewhere in between this groups, I can talk with people from them, I can go from one to another but in the end I'm still an outsider. In this universe they create I'm just a lost, unneeded comet. But you know what, I'm fine with it, I'm sick and tired of trying so hard only to get hurt in the end, so I stopped caring.'