Except my family, there is one person, l, who I will always remember and respect because of her personalities, she is kind and also she is the one I love. Nothing is impossible with her no matter what is it where is it and why is it that is what I learn from her. A girl who is perfect for every situation; she does not need to be dazzling, but people still have looked at her,TBH she is a stunning lass. Basically, I think every man in this world wants this lady to become his , even me.
I went for a little while chasing this girl..but I couldn't not reach because I was too scared.After few years I found her . I was overwhelmed and excited to be honest I have no words to describe that day the eary days of September. I lost her I missed her because I was not a good chaser she was and is way above my league.some people say that you will meet the right person at time of hardships..I don't know whether it's true but all I can say is when I was down and was hating my life so much out of the blue I found her . She was and is a gem because even in my previous relationship I am not blaming but I couldn't not share my feelings. Later it became a chaos .But this girl she shared her thoughts and even I could share mine, we dint see each other for like a long time years actually but through texts and all the chatting I could see her smile this was new to me . This was like a first step to fix me "no matter how destroyed it seems ,you can always be saved " a lesson which I learnt .
#2
Surely, her personalities can make people who do not like to talk will talk, and her kindness can make everybody respects her, even that is the guy who hates her the most.
In my opinion, it is hard to find one like her in this century, whether there is at least one or not, I still always think of her. First of all, her personalities attract me when we first met each other, I really admire her.
She is friendly and kind of cute with her voice and smile to keep people around her. She can be a center in a crowd easily. I like her at the first time we met: we talk about a lot of things just like we are best friends. That is also the first time I feel free with a girl, because I usually stuck when I try to talk to a girl.
When i was not able to move on I did some crazy stuffs ,after I found this girl her memories which I had in my mind came back till today I'm living in those sweet memories.
One question runs often in my mind
"How do I ask her out without asking her out?" Cause some people won't take it seriously some will just walk away so this is really one heck of a hullabaloo for me. This happen when you care for someone. We were like "cloak and dagger" completely different but an adroit awesome team
It was at that time I realised that love is "Something you want to hold onto and never let go".
Another thing we all know that when someone is special to us and everytime we close our eyes, we pray like god let both of ur be together it's not silly it's actually what the heart craves for. Everyday when I wake up this happens and before going to bed .
#3
Somedays, I'm afraid to write, because it honestly kill me. When it's 3 am and when I can't sleep,I open my window or step outside my house,To Feel the crisp, cold air on my skin. Then I try to to find the moon and the stars that guard the night sky. I make a cup of tea, grab a pen and paper and write all the things I wish you and could Say in the form of a poem or prose that I wish I had the Courage to tell. When I'm done, I pray hoping that maybe one day you'll show them to her . This makes me feel lighter .
She loves the moon she used to talk about it for hours . I used to gaze the night skies and everytime I see the moon I see her face .. Do you people know how the scars on the moon are formed ? I used to think that every time she smiles a scar is formed ,cause when I look at the moon and it's scars it reminds me of her smile . She had the best smile in my school .
I used to bunk mine and go to her class , just to see her smile . I had no courage cause I was not a perfect person and to be honest she was way too out of my league.
#4
I used to dream often . One such beautiful dream came in November . I did take her out on a date like in the movies but this was special and we dint go to a restaurant or alike. She wore a fine scarlet red maxi, she looked like an angel with a shot gun . I was in my tux which I love so much. Then we were on a chopper I don't know how .We started at 8pm in the night just to see how beautiful the city was. We did fly above the great river to see the city's reflection it was so beautiful. Something amazing was gonna happen ,we do know how dreams end ... someone wakes you up and yes it was my sister she was yelling at me I looked at my phone it was 12 noon. I sat in my bed and tears just did come out and I never wanted that dream to end I did wish to dream again and if possible never ever wake up from that dream cause it was so mesmerizing. That dream did show me how my life would be if she was in it.
#5
Latter as days passed our conversations got short and sometimes I used to wait for a sign to talk I dint want to annoy her . We all know about the moon and how it works ,she's like that too...we used to talk then she disappears , but whenever I see her message , even though I'm tired my adrenaline shoots up .
Im not a good stalker ..my friend used to make fun of me all the time and stil does some things are inevitable . I try to learn what she likes and things but she always throws me in maze she's really good at that. I've never given up and will not cause not even the entire English language can describe her ,she's something special .
Finally,
Crushes. We’ve all had them. It starts with a flicker of interest that quickly boils and bubbles over to full-blown infatuation. Is it love? Is it obsession? A combination of both? Whichever way a crush tugs at your insides, it’s a reminder that you are alive. When this crush turns into love it's something beautiful and the feeling is amazing . When you have crush you become nothing but a poet ,but I've become even something better . I spend most nights falling in love with the idea of being with her.
Everytime ,when I want to give up on her there's always something inside telling me just give it time.
She will always be my favourite notification .
Will be continued
