Counterpart

PROLOGUE

A place where I feel alone, a place where I am not able to feel at home. A complete family, but feel nothing. I Felt nothing. Yes, they are here. Yet I can't feel loved by someone to the point that you are seeking someone's attention... someone's love.... I'm so tired of everything. Tired of being compared? Tired of doing something just to be the best?

To make them proud of me, but they always see my faults. Always ignoring what I achieved.

Sometimes I question myself, Why am l like this? Why was I born to just feel the pain that I am feeling right now? But then I just realized that questioning yourself can't help you, that this can't ease the pain.

And worst of all, I can't be mad at them, because you know why? Because I love them... I love my family.

The best thing that I can do is understand them, even if I don't understand them or don't know why.

I kept running and running as the heavy and loud rain touched my skin, tears falling down on my face like water falls.

I sobbed, and I just found myself infront of a boisterous bar. I have no idea why my feet brought me here when, infact, I should just go to a place where I'm alone and at peace, but I'm so sick of being alone.

I entered the bar, ignoring the eyes that were looking at me. I guess because of my face or something. I don't care.

I just can't feel anything right now. I'm hurt.

Arghh! ang sakit naman.

I'm in the middle of this crowded place when I can't help but cry and sob like there's no end.

I fell on my knees and cried harder. Suddenly I just felt that my head was hurting, probably from crying so much. When I looked up, the place was spinning but I still did not close my eyes.

I looked down again. Pinakiramdaman ko ang napakaingay na paligid. ah! Ang sakit talaga ng pakiramdam ko. Is it because I cried so much? Ni hindi ko na din namalayan na sobrang basa na ng suot ko dahil sa malakas na ulan.

Aray!

Some people accidentally hit me because they were dancing.
I can't stand up. Argh.
I decided to close my eyes, thinking it might lessen the pain that I was feeling.

Then, after a minute, I opened my eyes because the place had suddenly become silent.

My eyes widened.

I-I... wait w-what?
I was so startled.

What is this? What is this place?
It's different from where l was kneeling on the ground. Iba ang lugar na ito.
Napakatahimik at..
I looked up, It's morning.
I looked around and It was a farm. I stand up, a little bit anxious...

Nasaan ako? H-hindi ko maintindihan.
I held my head and I shouted.

"No! Hindi ito totoo! S-someone please help me.." sa dala ng pagod at panghihina ay paunti-unting humina ang boses ko. I sighed and calmed myself down.

Inhale exhale..  inhale exhale..

Inilibot kong muli ang paningin ko sa paligid at pinilit ang sariling isipin kung ano nga ba ang nangyayari sa akin, kung paano at bakit nangyayari sa akin ito. I need to know what happened to me and how I will go back.

Biglang may pumasok sa isip ko.
I remembered now that sometimes, when I was a kid, this happened to me.

At first, I didn't mind that; I thought it was just my imagination, but when I was in high school, it happened again, so I got curious.

I went to our library in school to research, finding a book that was familiar with what happened to me. Then I found a book. I don't know if it is a science book or what. I opened it, I flipped and flipped the pages. Then I got stopped from flipping the pages because there was a word that caught my attention.

"Parallel Universe"
I read what is written in that,
"There is a concept that suggests that there could be other universes besides our own, where all the choices you made in this life played out in alternate realities. The concept is known as a "Parallel Universe," and is a facet of the astronomical theory of the multiverse."

I didn't continue reading it because I have classes to attend to.

I kept thinking about what had happened to me since that day. I don't know if it is true, so I just forgot about it.

Ngunit nangyari ito ulit...

Bigla akong napasigaw. "What if.. w-what.." Paulit ulit akong umiling.
No, this can't be.

"Am I in the other world?" I whispered to myself as I looked around the place from where I was standing.

Nababaliw na yata ako. I laughed foolishly.

Oh God... Can I lost consciousness right now?

I can't believe it.