PROLOGUE
DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
This may contain some mature contents and strong languages.
Expect some typographical errors. "I know I'm not perfect but you aren't either."
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This is not a usual story that some of us have, the Alpha is not the typical title itself.
This is a journey where the guy I loved the most and was my first love has come to an end.
I made 201 poems for him para ma-realize nya na he's really special to me knowing na he wouldn't do the same thing but I'm not expecting someting from him. Naiintindihan ko naman lahat.
He's soft and protective, he's perfectly imperfect but not for me.
["Can we meet and talk personally? right now?"] he texted me with that and I know there was something.
Something.
Something that will going to break my heart that night.
"Hi, kamusta ka?" I knew this tone and it's slowly breaking my heart
I nodded and smile but I looked so awful, I'm trying my best not to cry that time because I don't want to cry in front of him.
"Ang lamig ng pasko.." He talked again "..can we stop right here?"
Pinipigilan ko yung luha, kahit siguro hindi ko naman pigilan, walang papatak eh kasi nasa loob yung pakiramdam ng pag-iyak ko. masakit. hindi ako makapagsalita.
"I'm not ready to commit for something I'm not sure.." He really mean it
That night I was just staring to the christmas lights blinking in front of us while listening to the song we used to sing in duet, it's ILYSB by LANY.
"..I promise that i'll be back to you once I'm ready, please accept me again." He said
I smiled and that shit gave me a false hope, I was holding on to that promise not knowing that it really was meant to break a heart.
"Sorry.." He knew that ayoko nakakarinig ng sorry from the person na special sa akin. "..I loved you, and you gave me something that fulfilled my heart, you gave me something na hindi naibigay ng iba, you gave me something na kahit tignan ko lang it will reminds me of you.'
But that something is me, something that will never be enough for your satisfaction.
"I'm sorry but let's stop right here and right now." inulit pa nga
Tinignan ko sya, tinitigan ko ang kanyang mukha na parang wala na syang kapalit sa buhay ko.
I smiled to him saying that everything is better than fine when it comes to him.
"Aalis na ako, ingat ka sa pag-uwi mo."
I'm in pain that night, I felt numb.
I'm not lost but felt that I was going to wrong direction, he's my friend in need and he's my light.
But he left me nowhere to be found.
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