Forever Forgotten - A Namjin Fanfiction ✔

Page 9: 1/5/19

It has been a day since I realized that my friend is actually my boyfriend. I had the courage to read another page in my diary, but it still didn't seem to be helping me any.

Dear diary,

I'm sorry that I couldn't write to you before, but a lot of stuff happened so I'm gonna fill you in with a couple of simple sentences.

-I realized I have 3 exams in 4 days

-New years was amazing

-I now have a boyfriend

-My friends are fighting for the past couple of days because they can't decide who is better at making nachos (In my opinion it's me but we won't tell them that)

-Oh and did I mention that I now have a B O Y F R I E N D?

You'll never guess who it is...

Okay, you might have guessed it.

My roommate kissed me on New Years! I was very surprised when it happened but just went with it. At first, I thought that it was just because of a dare or some shit like that, but after the kiss, he told me that he actually liked me! Can someone even be this happy?

I obviously told him that I had feelings for him too and now we're dating! We haven't been able to go on a date or anything like that yet because I have THREE EXAMS IN FOUR DAYS, but I can't wait until we do!

Anyway, I need to get back to studying before my boyfriend beats my ass.

No names.

No good information.

No nothing.

I want to know my boyfriend's name, and every time I call for him, I almost say it.

But I can't.

And I hate it.

I wanted him to treat me as if nothing happened and as if everything is back to normal, but he didn't want to.

And now I've lost all hope.

I can't even remember his name! It's killing me!

What's killing me even more, is the fact that my boyfriend is keeping me in the dark. I mean, I get it. I might get messed up and I would be thinking that what he told me is my memories and I would never really know if I got my memories back or not.

Okay, I see why.

The doctor said that there are some people who get their memories back all at once, while for others it's one at a time.

And there are others who never get them back.

I am currently watching a random show that was on with my supper in front of me, untouched. I'm not really in the mood for eating at the moment and my head was pounding like it was going to combust.

"Are you not hungry?" My boyfriend asks me, and I shake my head.

"My head hurts."

Concern laced his beautiful features.

"I'll go get a nurse, maybe they can do something for that." He says as he gets up.

As he was walking out the door, the pounding suddenly stopped along with the pain, like I was suddenly waking up from a dream.

"Oh wait-" I try to call him back. "Namjoon the pain stopped."

He walks back in, surprise written on his face.

"Did you... say my name?"

I give him a confused look. Why wouldn't I know my boyfriend's name?

"Um... yeah?" I respond as he walks closer. "Why wouldn't I know your name Joonie?"

Tears filled his eyes which made me panic.

"What's wrong?"

"Why were you coming to my house last weekend?" He asks me, not taking his eyes off of me.

"Well... it's because I finally got off work for the week." I answer him. "It is your birthday Friday after all."

He suddenly wraps his arms around me tightly, and I wrap his arms around him as well.

"What's wrong Joonie?" I ask him worriedly

"You remember me." He responds, hugging me tighter.

"Yeah? Why wouldn't..." My eyes widen in realization.

I do remember him, and everything about him. I remember our friends- Hoseok and Yoongi are on their honeymoon while the rest are in the US because Jimin had a job opportunity there. I remember calling Namjoon before leaving to tell him I was coming, I remember the car that ran a red light. I remember everything.

How could I forget?

"I'm... sorry..." I tell him, tears slipping out of my eyes. "I don't know how I-I could forget y-you."

"It's not your fault." He reassures me, his voice cracking. "I'm just glad you're back."

I sob, gripping onto his sweater tighter as he runs a hand through my hair.

I'm so happy that I finally remember.

I don't know what I would do if I would lose those precious memories of us.

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Hey guys! Did you watch the MAMA and the MMA performances? I'm still shocked by how amazing they were!

Wash your hands and stay happy!

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