Man, you're my man (Zhanyi)

Chapter 16

But at last, yibo didn't ask anything, because he knew that Zhan would never listen to him, nor to leave, so why did he let himself suffer? He closed his eyes quietly and lay there still, just like a docile cat. Now, yibo wasn't thinking about anything and just wanted to go to sleep quickly, in case that he would be softhearted when hearing zhan's sweet words. But Zhan just wanted to talk with him and kept saying sweet words in his ears

"Xiaoyi, let me tell you the truth. During my stay in the U.K, there was a time when my memory was indeed erased, but even my dad did not expect that I was crazier than a lunatic after losing my memory. I almost killed a doctor once and then the doctor locked me up alone. But they found that I started to hurt myself, either by stabbing myself in the stomach with chopsticks or banging my head against the wall. Finally, they were panicked and called my dad to tell him the truth"

"It turned out that the drugs they made me take weren't approved by the world health organization and were illegal that could kill people. Lu yin said that I was more scared than a dead man at that time" Zhan said with a smile but yibo felt zhan's chest that was against his back heave heavily. Zhan downplayed his unhappy experience, but yibo knew it must be unforgettable

Yibo knew he couldn't keep indifferent, but he couldn't comfort Zhan by words either. He just stretched out his hand to pull up the quilt and covered himself and Zhan more tightly. Zhan was also worn out this day and was lying next to yibo with clothes on. He hugged yibo in his arms tightly and put his head on yibo's warm shoulder. His voice was low and hoarse, as if it was going to hide something

"Later,those doctors tried to stimulate my brain. Although my memory was restored, I was left with a very serious illness. They said that if I got sick one day. I would kill someone else or myself,so xiaoyi, if I have a relapse someday, you must run away from me as quickly as you can" before Zhan was asleep, he murmured in yibo's ears again and again, as if he was dreaming "you can be with anyone in the future, but not song Xian. He is not a good person....."

"Song Xian is not a good person, what about you? Are you a good person?" Yibo asked silently in his heart. He did not know how deep the sorrow was in his eyes, but he knew his heart hurt, especially when Zhan said that he woukd die, his heart was torn apart. Zhan had a very fresh smell of gardenia. It seemed that before coming to the hospital, he had gone back home to take a bath

Yibo didn't know why he was so attached to a scent. He now just felt so painful in his heart and gradually unclenched his fist. He turned around slowly and looked at zhan's face with sad eyes. After a moment,he couldn't help but quietly put his arms around zhan's waist and certainly curled up into zhan's arms. He whispered "I can be cheap....Zhan, I don't care. As long as you don't marry another woman, no matter how you treat me, I will not leave you"

Yibo thought if he gave up his dignity, the relationship between Zhan and him would last forever, but he didn't know that when he started to expect the love to last, their relationship had come to an end. Feeling the familiar warmth, Zhan involuntarily reached out to hold yibo in his arms with a smile on his face. He gently kissed yibo's forehead and hugged him tighter with satisfaction "xiaoyi...."

Tears tricked from the corners of yibo's wyes. Yibo lost control of his emotions and felt that a rush of warmth washed over him with zhan's whisper and erased all his pain and bitterness. He thought firmly in his heart "Zhan, I'll love you fir the rest of my life. As long as you don't get married. I will accompany you to the hell" in fact, he was already living in the hell

When yibo woke up the next morning. Zhan was already awake. Yibo was still awakened by the pungent smell of disinfectant. Since his father died in his arms in the hospital that year, he had set a foot in hospital again, not because he didn't want to, but because he didn't dare. The guilt in his heart made him think of death when he smelled the disinfectant