heather (bakudeku)

bakugo's breakdown

His arms were sore, he had been training for what seems like hours for now. He was sweating harshly, breath unsteady. Bakugo was forcing himself to keep on going. He didn't want to stop.

A: Young Bakugo, please don't force yourself into thinking that you're not at your limit.

B: I'm perfectly fine

A: Please Bakugo, as your teacher it is best if you let it slide and rest. Your physical health is important too.

B: I'm not going to. Stop telling me what to do, All Might.

B: I'm not tired. Me? Tired from doing this?

All Might has been watching the young boy forcefully releasing large explosions, his right arm were leaving burn spots. Because of his quirk, he was used to this. But the amount of wounds he has in this training was way more than he usually gets. The pro-hero was concerned. What made him push himself so hard?

B: Just a couple more hours. You can leave now.

Flashbacks

D: Kacchan, you're pushing yourself too hard...

B: Damn Deku, stay out of this. You passed and I didn't, I think we both know how you think I'm feeling.

B: Or do you think that the fact that I didn't pass makes you better than me? Superior to me?

B: Is that what you think Deku?

D: Kacchan? What are you saying? That's not what I said. I never even-

B: THEN WHY ARE YOU SO BOTHERED

D: That's a stupid question.

B: How the fuck is that stupid?

D: Bakugo if you want me to state the obvious right now, then I will.

D: Your right hand is fucking burnt. Your voice is nearly gone because we've been screaming at each other for the past hour.

D: You're fucking pale Bakugo, your hands are shaking, your lips are quivering. That's not a sign? No goddamn response from forcing your body?

D: You look like you're about to faint

B: AND YOU KNOW THIS BUT YOU CONSTANTLY STILL GET ON MY NERVES

B: WHY CANT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY

D: Because I care about you? I don't like seeing you self-destructing yourself like this.

B: FUCKING HELL I'M NOT SELF DESTRUCTING MYSELF

B: I NEVER TOLD YOU TO CARE DID I?

D: WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP ON SCREAMING

D: My patience is running thin, I don't want to say anything bad to you. I am considerate about your feelings. But it hurts to see that you don't try to consider my own.

B: Dumbass, I never told you to be. Just blurt it out. So that'll make us even.

His voice was growing softer, even perplexed that he was acting such a way. He was just mad, he felt like everything he was doing was going to a waste.

D: Would fighting with me make you feel better?

B: What?

D: If it does, just do it. I'll give you all I can. Its better to see you rest up faster after our fight than forcing yourself to train even more.

B: Fight you?

B: FIGHT YOU?

He was more furious now, was he that petty enough to give the impression that fighting him would solve this problem. Yes he did want to fight him, but they were dating. How could Izuku stoop that low into a choice?

If they fought, both of the parties would obviously wound each other even more. The last thing he wanted was to take his anger out to him.

B: Fucking hell, Deku.

B: Just fuck off already.

B: You're being such a nuisance right now. Today, tomorrow. Just fuck off already.

He didn't mean that.

B: Fuck I'm just so tired of seeing you and your goddamn shitty face. Just fuck off. This was wrong.

B: Whatever we agreed on

B: Maybe it's best if we never even dated.

Bakugo did not mean that.

Izuku swore he held back his tears, but when the words spit out of his mouth like that without sparing any mercy, he couldn't handle it. This was such a stupid fight. He was just doing what any decent human being would do, help him out. But instead, Katsuki chose to push him away for absolutely the pettiest reason possible.

D: Are you being fucking serious right now?

B: YES I FUCKING AM

No, he wasn't.

D: You're not even looking at my face.

D: Look at me Bakugo.

D: Look into my eye for fucks sake.

B: I TOLD YOU TO FUCK OFF

B: JUST GO ALREADY

D: Are you really doing this just because I passed and you didn't? This is so fucking petty I can't even describe how immature this is. You're better than that. You're not doing this Bakugo.

D: Please Bakugo...

He wasn't calling him Kacchan anymore, he knew this was serious. But no, he didn't rationalize it, he didn't think about the tears his significant other was shedding. He was embarrassed. The ash blonde was so embarrassed at everything and just wanted to be left alone.

B: I'm going to make an explosion, and you are going to move away from me.

B: Move the fuck away or you'll get hurt.

Both of them were worn out, they needed space. They both were aware of that too. This was stupid, everything was stupid.

D: Please Kacchan, stop hurting yourself.

Deku was choking on his own sobs, he thought that they had mended the broken friendship but now it was like the past all over again. He loathed it, he just wished Bakugo never said those words. What would he gain from his dissociation anyway? Yes it would let him win the fight, but to the price of losing Izuku?

B: Fuck off before this gets worse.