During Endgame when the Avengers are all at the compound and looking at the pictures and names of the people that were Gone.
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Peter...
God I miss him so much. His laugh and his annoying jokes...
I looked up at the the screen in front of me and caught a picture of him. Oh god... that hole in my chest. I can't... I can't do this. I need him. I need my son.
"Tony!" I looked up, startled. Everyone was staring at me. "We've been calling your name for the past few minutes," Steve said.
"Oh... sorry." They all gave him worried looks.
Steve opened his mouth to say something but was interrupted by F.I.D.A.Y.
"Sir, there is a message for you from Mr. Parker." My breath hitches for a moment.
"M-message?" I stuttered over my words as I tried to think.
"Yes. It seems that he made it in case he went missing or something went wrong. Would you like me to play it?"
I looked at the others and saw confusion on their faces. "Yes play it."
The A.I. Started up the video.
The screen lit up and there he was. Peter... He adjusted the camera and opened his mouth to speak.
"Hey Mr. Star—" he stopped for a moment and sighed. "Hey dad. I wanted to make this for you just in case something happened to me. I had Karen help me with this and then transfer the video to F.R.I.D.A.Y. I made one for everyone, Aunt May, MJ, Ned... you get what I mean." I took a deep breath and tried to hold back my tears.
"Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you. I don't know if you knew this but you're my hero. Not Iron Man, even if he is pretty cool. But you're WAY cooler. Umm... sorry I keep getting sidetracked. (He gave his signature awkward/shy smile.)
I made a video for each person that I care about. And I really hope that everyone that sees their video is okay. I hope that I doesn't come to this. I don't want you to see these videos unless... something happens." Peter took a deep breath. "I love you so much Dad. I'm so glad that I get to look up to you everyday. Even if you're having a hard day or if you need help with an anxiety attack or even nightmares. I'll always be here for you and I really hope that you know that. You mean so much to me Dad. I love you. Bye." The screen went black signaling the end of the recording.
I felt the tears running down my face. I covered my mouth to try and conceal the sobs better.
"Oh Tony... are you okay?" Natasha said.
I shook my head and let myself go. "He died in my arms! I couldn't save him! This is my fault. I should've never gotten him into this mess. I... god I miss him so much. He got me to smile when I was in the worst moods and got me to laugh when I was crying. I can't... I can't do this. I can't." I kept rambling and started felt a panic attack building up but tried to push it back.
"Tony. Tony calm down. You gotta take a deep breath. You're gonna hurt yourself even more." I couldn't tell who said it, I couldn't see clearly. 'Oh god. Peter! I need Peter!' My breathing started to become more erratic. I heard the clink of heels rushing over.
"Tony. Tony come on you can do it. You just gotta take some deep breaths. Come on, you gotta count." I nodded. "I'll start. One."
"T-two."
"Three."
"F-f-four."
"Five."
"S-six."
"There you go. You're doing such a good job. Seven."
"Eight."
"Nine."
"Ten."
My breathing had finally started to get back to normal and my vision cleared up. Pepper...
"Pepper..." She smiled at me and nodded.
"Yeah it's me hun. It's me." I sobbed and buried myself into her arms. "God. I miss him. I miss him!"
"I know Tony. I know. But you're ok. You just need to breathe and calm down. You're ok." Her voice calmed me and my hands finally stopped shaking, 'Wait, when did they start shaking?' I shook my head and tired to clear my thoughts.
"Tony," Cap said. "What was that about?"
I took a deep breath and started explaining. "Peter Parker. He's- was 15, almost 16. Peter is so smart, even smarter than me. He can understand Bruce's work and correct it if needs be. He... is so kind and has a heart of gold. Peter is my son. And I lost him. On Titan..."
"Wait, why in the hell was he on Titan with you?!" Cap questioned.
"Fuck... he would be so mad at me," I looked up at all of them and the confusing looks they were giving me. "Peter Parker is Spiderman. He has saved so many lives and was too selfless to leave the ship. Because he didn't want me to be alone with people I didn't know..." A tear fell from my eye but I quickly wiped it away. They were all shocked.
"Wait... I fought a 14 or 15 year old!" Cap exclaimed while the others just stared and started realizing the situation.
"I'm... I'm so sorry Tony. We just assumed... that you didn't lose anyone. That you had no reason to be sad about anyone being Gone." Natasha said.
I shook my head and moved a little, being careful of how much I moved. "It's fine." 'It's fine. My initial go to when Peter isn't here.' I shook my head.
"Pepper, can you help me up?" I asked softly. She nodded from beside me and slowly helped me stand. I felt all the fatigue hit me.
"Come on, you need rest," she whispered softly. I nodded and let her lead me to the med bay. I slowly layer down with her help and just let sleep consume me, bringing me to the land of nightmares...
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Hi. How did I do? Sorry it's my first avengers one shot and I know that I forgot to mention some stuff but I honestly couldn't remember some of it. Anyways, thanks. See you next time!
