What will happen? kurooxkenma

It's fine...

[I'm too lazy to rewrite this chapter I don't really like it anyway but uh yeah-)

Kenma's pov

*13 missed calls from yesterday, 7 unread texts*
*Kuroo is typing*

'Please call me back, I haven't heard of you in days! I love you Kenma, please drink and eat something! Have you got up already? If so, remember to brush your teeth! Ok that's it for today
I love you💜'

He sents these everyday since this one afternoon. It wasn't a big deal for me, but he took it very serious.
I was just crossing the street when a car was coming at me with full speed. I just stopped and stood on the street...
I stopped for a second, lost in my thoughts. But these thoughts were different than the one just a couple of months ago. There are dark and hopeless. I can't get rid of them. They haunt my sleep, my day, my evenings, they're just there the whole time. It's like I can't feel anything but emptiness.
I don't even know why...
Perhaps Kuro is right, I haven't drank anything yet,...but I can't get myself to move.
Today is Sunday right? Maybe I should attend class again, I've been missing for almost 2 weeks now.....

*next day after uni*

Kuroo's POV

"Oh thank lord! He's here!"
I can't put into words how happy I was when I saw Kenma at the park after his classes again!
I ran up to him and hugged him as tight as I could. I kissed his small head dozens of times,..when it hit me again.
I swore myself to hold back and let him have as much space as he needs. I don't want to overwhelm him.
"I'm so so so (endless so's later) ... sorry! I just love you so much!
"It's fine..."
"Kitten, I can't help you if you don't tell me how to. Babe, I love you! I'd claim the stars for you,but I can't do that if you aren't ...here anymore... I want you do feel better! I don't want to annoy you but please consider how everyone around you feels! We're all so worried! I don't want to be selfish, I just care about you!"

I don't think I've ever cared for someone this much, and I want him to know that!

*they start walking to Kenma's apartment*

I hope he drank and ate enough...I don't want him to collapse ... Well, I brought extra snacks just like always, just in case...

Kenma's pov

"Are you alright? You look paler than usual!"

Yeah yeah I'm totally fine. I'll just go to my roo....
*tumbles over to the his bed*
W- Why are there two Kuroos? Looks like he has a twin...he never told me-

*CRASH*

"KOZUME! CAN YOU HEAR ME? ANSWER ME KENMA! BABE- oh -KOZUME!

Kuro ran towards me and put my face into his big hands and held my head on.
his chest. My vision was blurred so I didn't really know what exactly was going on....I just felt a sharp pain at the back of my head as if someone hit me. Wait- It was me...I hit the floor....ouch

"STAY AWAKE KOZUME!" I flinched a little at Kuroo's loud scream, I've never heard him scream this loud before...
I wanted to say something but I couldn't keep focused. Eventually I passed out...

narrator

After a couple of seconds Kenma gained his consciousness back and felt Kuro positioning him im his lap as he was a little kid.

"Kozume you have to eat! Here, open your mouth!"
Kenma did as Kuro said and opended his mouth. Kuro fed him pudding bread, it was soft and not hard to choke on, perfect for Kenma right now.

Kenma took a few very small bites and collapsed onto Kuro again.

Kuro wrapped his muscular arms around Kenma before he could fall on the floor again.
"Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" He whispered as he ran his soft fingers against Kenma's wrists..
"Please don't go...."
Kuro dig his head into his boyfriend's shoulders and silent tears fell from his eyes onto Kenma...

"I have to call an ambulance" he whispered, choking on his tears.

Kenma's pov

Suddenly I felt something heavy on my shoulder. I slowly began to see clearly again and I knew Kuroo was crying into my shoulder.

Then it hit me....everything that has happened in the past few weeks. I don't want this anymore! I suddenly felt this warm, fuzzy feeling inside me...it was the gratitude and thankfulness I felt that Kuroo was here and that he held me in this very moment.

I sat back up, to Kuroo's surprise, and wrapped my arms around his neck. I put my forehead against his and all I managed to say was "I'm sorry"

The love I feel towards Kuroo just overflew my body and all I could think of was to kiss his soft lips forever.

I looked into his beautiful eyes, I put my hands on his cheeks and cought him in a deep kiss.
I wanted to be with him and be held by him and have these wonderful nights with him again and again.

I don't want to go....I don't want to leave him...

I felt his tears rolling down on my skin, I wiped his tears away and gave him a sincere smile. Tho my eyes were watering as well

He smiled as bright as never before and hugged me even tighter than this morning.
"Please, - please let us help you"
He whispered in my ear and kissed my whole face as if I was holy to him.

I chuckled, wiping my own tears and I fell into his arms again...
I laughed....after such a long time....

Maybe I am enough!

I completely forgot we were sitting on the floor the entire time. I also forgot my headache and ....

FUCK

I'm bleeding.
- sirens?

*time skip*

"H-hey Kuroo?..."
"Oh you're awake, sleepy head! What is it?"
"How long have I slept?"
"About three hours. Here, drink this. It's for the headache, the nurse just brought this in case you woke up."

I took the medicine and sat up in my hospital bed.

"Hey, is everything alright? - hey hey d- don't cry, what's wrong! Tell me"

I couldn't hold my tears back.
"I'm sorry- I don't want to die! I want to be with you and I want to kiss you and feel you and spent these nights with you again and-" all my thoughts from earlier just spilled out like tea.
"Hey,.. hey,..." Kuroo pat my head "it's okay, you're safe here! I'll hold you as long as you want me to. I'm here with you, and I'll always be! And I'll sure spend more nights with you" his smile turned into a small smirk and he hugged my head carefully.

How do I deserve a boyfriend like that......

"Are you sure I don't bother you? I mean-you said you would help me, but I don't want to annoy you!"
"You aren't! I want to help you more than anything else in this world! I want a healthy and happy boyfriend! I want you!"
"Will you come with me?"
"Of course I will! I won't leave your side!" He chuckled a bit as he losened his grip and smiled at me.

It felt so warm....so safe...

"When can I leave?"
"The nurse said as soon as you wake up, they said it was probably just a shock and it'll be over, your head is fine you just shouldn't do any exhausting activities for the next couple of weeks."
"Now you tell me?" I pouted and got up to put my shoes on.
"Ok let's go" I said ready to leave this place, hospitals scare me.

Narrator

Kuroo helped Kenma with the checkout (Kenma was still a bit dizzy) and they left together.
That night Kuroo stayed at Kenma's, tho Kenma felt better, he was too worried to leave his boyfriend alone for the night.

Kuroo's pov

He finally realized! He finally did! I can't express how glad I am in words, not even actions could.
The past few weeks were pure horror and stress, for both of us! I don't blame Kozume tho.
He's the one...I know it...we'll figure things out tomorrow and get help.

*with that he fell asleep with Kenma cuddled up in his arms*