It started from chasing the person that taught me some basic morals in life. She was the light that lit my life, so bright that it made me look up to her even more. I loved her. All I wanted was to be with her, nothing else. She's the first friend I made and was the first to betray me. Pushed me to the abyss of darkness that I thought I would never be able to return to anymore. How? Why? I don't know.
But despite of being ignorant to life, and knows nothing but to chase the girl despite with the fact of being pushed twice, you were there. Always by my side to support me and gave me help without an ounce of reluctance, always worried of my being and gave me sermon whenever I do reckless things. You chased me, grabbed me from being drown more in darkness. For what and how I am right now, you're one of the reasons.
Khun, it was all because of you.
"Bam! get a hold of yourself or you'll be killed! He's not the same person he used to be!"
The violent sizzling of the heavy rain unable me to hear clearly the voices from my comrades from afar.
I'm soaked. Bloods and water thread through my body's contour and the agonizing pain from it, to which I couldn't seem to feel. For the reason my focus was fixed to the person in front of me, pinning his knife on my throat.
"Would you look at this? Who would have thought that the irregular Jue Viole Grace only amounts to this? Ridiculous. How pathetic."
His eyes was dead. So cold like an ice that gives shiver if you dare to stare at it. The blue eyes that glints lights of genuinuity before was utterly coverd with nastiness and bloodthirstiness.
"...K-Khun... What happened...?" I managed to asked
His stares didn't changed nor he does budged instead he shifted his knife and lift my chin with its sharp edge.
"Nothing happened. Just some realizations." He deadpanned, truly cold that it hurt me to hear his voice
"...Is it because of me? p-please, tell me..."
"There's nothing to tell you."
"I... want to know,"
"Why aren't you fighting?"
"I want to help—"
My words was cut off when he abruptly stabbed me from my left shoulder and pushed hard me through it only to pinned me from the tree behind me. I clenched my teeth as I groaned. As the intense atmosphere between us went down, I started to felt the pain from each of my wounds.
He deepen the knife that was still stuck on my shoulder, "Isn't this enough of a proof that there's no use of words here?" and jerked the knife in a direction that made me screamed in pain
"At least..." I uttered in a midst of my heavy breathing, "Tell me t-the reason..." I gasped
"You knew it already. I climbed the tower for the sole purpose of becoming the head of our family. And in order to achieve it, I'll do everything and anything means necessary to make it happen."
He pulled out the knife on my shoulder, without a second bloods streamed out from my wound. I immediately grasped on my wounds to at least give it pressure to restrain the bleeding without breaking my gaze in his eyes. He stared at the blood on his knife, trancing like as if he's bored of what his doing. Lifeless and maybe even if killing me won't give him stimulation.
"You didn't expect this right? So did I. It must be hurt for you. Being betrayed by the person you never thought would dare to do so. Who would have thought we would end up like this."
I bit my lower lip as I felt a warm liquid in my eyes. He was right. Never did I imagine we would be a mess like this. What could have been wrong?
"You hate me now, don't you?"
"...does ending my life gives you security of becoming the head of your family...?"
"Of course. You're a threat that even the King of this tower pays great attention and vigilance. Bringing your head to my worthless father would change my fate."
"I... see,"
I forced myself to stand straight and moved my back from the tree, I also coughed blood. Using bang won't guarantee to leave my head intact, I could use my shinsoo and condensed it.
I looked side ways, trailing my eyes at the rain drops and the silhouette of the big church to where Shibisu and the others were in, treating the wounds of those who have wounded badly. This fight was meaningless. This happened only because of my selfishness. Who would have thought that Khun managed to get the elders and few of the rankers to his side. No wonder, no questions to it, that's the way he is.
"Your head is mine, the soul is for White, how's that sound? Even your soul bears the power that everyone desires."
My gaze went back to him, "Before this war...I t-told myself, I would definitely get you b-back...guess, I expected the things in a different way." In a midst of my words, I created a condensed shinsoo in a shape of a flat circle sharp enough to cut even rocks; hovering in my left palm.
A smirk plastered on his face, "Decided to fight now?"
"From all those times we've been together, have you considered me your... best friend?"
He paused. After a moment he spoke, "I killed that stupid alligator doesn't that answer your question?"
A tear rolled on my cheeks. That's right, I almost forgot Rak wass gone already. But why is it, I should be mad but...
"Who would have thought that despite of his gigantic size he's so weak that I managed to defeat him—"
I threw the condensed shinsoo at him he dodged it easily but still received a wound on his cheek.
"I'm sorry, Mr. Khun." I wiped my tears using my arms, "I'm so done of betrayals. If you're thinking you could weaken me mentally, you're doing good." my hands voluntarily went their way to tie my hair.
After I tied my hair, I inhaled before threwing him a gaze that gave him shock.
"Being with you until now, don't expect me to just cry and chase you to have you back. You k-killed Rak."
That's right Bam. You're not weak. You failed to protect your friends and for the second time, you lose the person that matters to you the most.
I thought I have it all. Does friendship really needs to be like this? Before and up until now I never wanted anything but to be with everyone. To be with my friends. If having this power means to this then, I don't need this— that would my younger self would think, but I'm different now.
"Fight me with all you've got, Mr. Khun. That if you're really desperate to have my head. Because I won't be handling my head not until I avenge Rak even if it means killing you."
