Poetry and Short Stories

What I Want

I always try way to hard
And I have to remind myself that
I can take it easy
I can slow down
I don't have to always push through

It's not that I want to go months and years without breaks
It's not that I want to always panic when a due date approaches

I want to be normal
To do my work in healthy ways
To get my work done on time
To not over work myself every day

Why can't I get what I want?