For Those Below (Tedston)

VI - Hurt

WARNING: SH in this chapter!

Ben's p.o.v

I need to tell him how I feel. I can't just keep it as a secret. I look at winnie who's sleeping silently next to me. I smile softly.

I got up and took a shower. When I came back, winnie sat straight up in bed rubbing his eyes.

"Goodmorning" I said with a smile. He looks up "Goodmorning" he smiles back.

Do I have to tell win? Maybe he can help me. "Winnie? Can I tell you something?" I sat down next to him on the bed.

"Um yeah of course Benji." Win said. "Alright um..I think I'm in love with someone and uh" I looked at my hands. "Who is the lucky girl?" winnie said. "With Marcus.." I said gently.

"Oh? Marcus? That's so cute! Since when? I didn't knew you were gay?" Win said confused. "I'm not gay..maybe I am I don't know. I think I'm bisexual. I still like wimen. The problem is that I am too scared to tell him." I said with a sigh.

"I know the problem Ben" I looked up. "What?" I looked him in the eye. "Im in love with Ted. A really long time now and I don't know what to do. Im also scared to tell him" he sighed.

"We have to tell them Win. We're gonna tell them. Today." Win gave me a small insecure nod.

Winston's p.o.v

We went to the city that afternoon. I walked to Ted. "Hey um..you wanna get some Starbucks with me?" I said. "Yeah sure" he said smiling lightly.

We went to the Starbucks and ordered some ice coffee. We sat down. "There's nobody here" I chuckled. "Yeah it's very quiet in here." Ted said with a little grin.

"Ted we have to talk..I have to tell you something." I looked him in the eye for the first time in months. His beautiful eyes. Ive missed them.

"Im in love with you." I said with a shaking voice. He looked at me in silence not knowing what to say or do.

"Im sorry win but I just..don't feel it that way." My heart broke in one million pieces. I watched him standing up and walking away.

In my heart was an acing pain and at the moment, I just wanted to sit in a dark corner and cry my eyes out.

I took my coffee with me and went back to the hotel. When I arrived, I let myself fall on my bed and cried. A lot.

Everything is fucked up. Everything! I am not good in anything. Ted doesn't love me. I fuck everything up. My dad would rather have me dead than alive. My mom is dead. Oh god i hate myself.

I looked at my pocket knife who was lying in my bag. I got up and grabbed the thing. I slowly started to cut my wrists. When I stared. I couldn't stop.

Ted's p.o.v

He told me that he loved me. That's why he couldn't look me in the eye or talk to me like a normal person.

I was in shock so I said that I don't love him that way and walked away. Frightened. "Shit.." of course I love him but not that way, I think. I just don't know, I need some time.

I walked trough the streets of the city thinking about this.

Ben's p.o.v

Winston and Ted went to the Starbucks so it was Marcus and I now. "Where are we going?" I said smiling at him.

He's my bestfriend since we were 6 years old. That's a long time. Now I'm gonna have to tell him that I love him. Im scared.

"Let's have a walk on the beach yeah?" Marcus said. "That's a great idea!" I said with a smile.

We walked on the beach and after a while of talking about everything and anything I decided to tell him what's up.

"Marc.." I stopped walking and looked him in the eye. I took his hands. "Im in love with you.."

Marcus p.o.v

He stopped and took my hands. I looked him in the eye. "Im in love with you.." Ben said.

Oh my god I felt my heart flutter in my chest. I began to smile. That's why he was staring at me all the time. And his little cute smiles.

I look into his big brown puppy eyes. "Ben..I think I..love you too" I said with a smile. "Are you serious?! omg!" Ben said. He was so happy. He's so cute.

He presses his lips at mine and it feels so good. We kissed. We finally kissed. It feels like I've found the last piece of my heart.

Ben's p.o.v

Omg he loves me too. He fucking loves me too! I press my lips against his and this feels so good. He's a good kisser. His lips tastes like cherry and I love it.

I finally got to kiss and be with the love of my life. Marcus Mumford.