Mystic Falls High (Posie/Legacies)

I Found My Own Joy

~Lizzie's P.O.V~

"Lizzie? Hope?" MG sounds confused and heart broken when he sees the passionate kiss I shared with Hope.

Without saying another word, I ran up the stairs and into my room. That was the last thing I remember happening yesterday.

I have created so much hurt, how am I supposed to look at MG? I have crushed his poor little heart.

Hope managed to pick lock my bedroom door this morning. I wish it wasn't so awkward with her right now. Ideally we could talk about what happened last night, but who knows if that will actually happen. When Hope came in my room she just brought me coffee and cereal.

I'm just so confused with my feelings, first I'm guilty for hurting my best friend, second I'm also in love with my other best friend but not the one who is also in love with me, maybe?

"Hey...Sis?" Josie randomly appears with a small knock before entering my room. She comes in with a slight smile and looking like a rat that just crawled out of the sewer, no offense. She's completely hung over, of course no better than I am currently.

"Hi.."

"Can I ask you something?"

"I guess" I sigh looking down.

"Okay. I'm just gonna say it, do you have feelings for Hope? Be honest."

"Yes."

"Oh..well are you going to come downstairs?"

"I don't know. Does Hope even want to see me? I just hate myself rig-"

"Lizzie, no. You should never hate yourself for the feelings you have. It is not your fault that you don't have feelings for MG. And of course Hope wants to see you, she loves you, I don't know in what way, but she does."

With that she walks away after hugging me lightly. I think I might just go down there. I mean I need water anyway and running away from this situation won't help anything.

~Hope's P.O.V~

Last night was actually a disaster. This morning I helped Josie and Penelope clean up the massive mess all over the house. Then I made coffee for me and the girls. I brought Lizzie up hers since she didn't want to be around anyone.

I get how this must feel for her. She lost a good friend who she had feelings for, just because she was drunk and kissed me. It's just sad because I'm in the same boat as MG, I'm in love with Lizzie. Not that we would ever happen. I still can't believe that we kissed, I felt so much love and everything felt okay for once. Too good to be true, I know.

"Hope?" To my surprise I look up and Lizzie is slowly going down the steps.

"Hi Liz.."

"I'm sorry for all of this. I know I was stupid to kiss you, I never want to make you feel uncomfortable."

"Oh yeah, no it's totally fine" fuck I sound so stupid. This is when I should be confessing my feelings.

"Can we maybe talk about it?"

"Mhm yeah...you can go first."

"Okay. If I'm being honest I kissed you because-"

* Ding Dong*

Of course, just perfect timing. The bell rings and Penelope opens the front door to see MG. I should have known that Lizzie would have him come here. After all she loves him.
I decided to walk away and take a seat on the couch.

I'm not trying to sound dramatic, I'm just confused and I want to know what Lizzie is thinking.

"MG?" Lizzie questions, "why are you here?"

"I came to see how you are feeling. Lizzie if you could please just be honest with me...did kissing Hope mean something to you? Do you want to keep this up with me or no?"

"Look. I love you both, you guys are my best friends."

~Josie's P.O.V~

"Pen?"

"Yes Jo-jo?"

"I love you. We should get out of here. Let's go somewhere spontaneous babe." I give my girlfriend the biggest puppy eyes until she gets up and takes my hand.

I'm not sure where we are going but I'm just happy to do something with someone I love.

We get on Penelope's motorcycle and she drives us to this cute little candy shop about twenty minutes away from my house.

"Here we are Jo-jo, I'm not sure if you've ever been here but my parents brought me here the first night we moved here. I was upset knowing I won't be here for long. That this is just another stop in my parents journey. They wanted to help me see a little joy in this move. But um, I think I found my own joy. In you."

"Penny" my eyes water with tears of joy. God I hope she's never taken away from me. This is the happiest I've ever been. I will literally go with her if she has to leave one day. I just know I never want to see that day come. "You know that I love you so much. If you ever wanna talk about your past I'm always going to be here for you. And I'm so happy to be the joy you have found here. You mean everything to me."

Penelope smiles widely while grabbing my hand escorting me inside the candy shop.
This place is amazing, there's cotton candy everywhere and you can make it yourself. I'm so excited. We got sour patch kids, lemon heads, extreme sour candy and lollipops, as well as cotton candy.

About an hour later, Penelope brings us to the park.Who would have thought through everything I've experienced so far in high school, I would find someone like her.

~Lizzie's P.OV~

"Look. I love you both, you guys are my best friends." I start.
MG and Hope watch closely as I pull on the lower part of my shirt due to nerves.

"MG if I'm being honest, I don't have more than platonic feelings for you. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have drawn it on. I was too afraid and wanted to fight my real feelings, for Hope."