Guardian and Shadow

Life is not ever going to be the same

I know I hear voices and in fact people too, sometimes I just feel so lonely and when they show up I have someone to speak to my mom wanted me to pray harder and to ignore them when I saw them but they were my friends why would I ignore them, it's all very confusing especially when I was six and now I just don't tell anyone when they are around. I am Wyatt by the way, I am eighteen and I have a boyfriend we met in a mental health ward (yeah that is going to be a fun story to tell at parties). He is so funny and makes me really happy; we both went in when things got bad. I was sitting across from him in-group and when he started speaking I just wanted to be with him. I know I am jumping ahead here so let me start from the beginning. I was diagnosed as Bipolar Schizophrenic and that's when things happened that I still couldn't completely fathom. My grandmother was Bipolar who has since passed and an aunt who had Schizophrenia who is living out her days in a mental institute. My dad and mom are super religious but very opened minded and believe love is love, they did however think that my mental illness was something I could overcome, I guess they didn't expect an entire new world underneath ours. This is a story about an ancient battle and how I ended up in the middle of it. Yeah if that doesn't make me sound crazy then nothing else will so good luck. (Insert cheesy grin and two thumbs up here)

I am a blonde blue-eyed boy a little on the skinny side but honestly that is the least of my problems, I attend Rosemont High School and am a senior. I hadn't had an "episode" in a while and finally made new friends. We hung out mostly alone but today they had agreed to sit with me in the lunchroom like normal people, so I walked in talking to them and sat my self-facing away from the other students. I knew something was off because when I went to sit with my friends at lunch I get some strange looks and at first thought it was because I wasn't wearing the right clothes or maybe I had messed my lunch on myself "Who the fuck you speaking to Wacky Wyatt?" I scrunched my nose up, it was Dylan, and he was the typical jock type who enjoyed picking on me. "I am speaking to my friends" I whispered, "What fucking friends retard you're sitting by yourself!" He laughed and moved on, I turned to Steven who was my best friend. He was Spanish with pitch-black hair and warm brown eyes "Does he not see you?" I asked so confused. I saw Steven look at Sarah uncomfortably then the weirdest thing happened they just disappeared. I jumped and almost fell backwards off the bench "Steven, Sarah where the hell did you go!" I shouted. People started staring and I started looking under the table frantically. I started lifting my tray to see if maybe they were there. "Wyatt is everything ok?" Mrs Grundy asked me. I turned to her "My friends are gone, they were here a minute ago and I think Dylan scared them away" Mrs Grundy had a sympathetic look on her face and I didn't understand "Wyatt lets go to the office I am sure they will turn up" with that she held out her hand and I took it as she led me to the office. I waited outside the principal's office and then Mrs Grundy ushered me in. His office was plush and had some interesting art on the walls to be honest I thought they were 3D as they moved and swirled, I hadn't noticed the principal was even talking to me. "Wyatt what are you staring at?" he asked sounding concerned "Sorry your artwork is amazing" I replied, "Wyatt have you taken anything?" I looked at him "No I would never steal, why who said I did?" I asked panicking "No son I want to know if you have taken any drugs?" I shook my head furiously "No I would never" he sighed and sat back in his wing tipped leather chair "Son I think you should go to the nurse, its protocol to test you just in case" he pushed a button on his desk "Get Nurse Jacky in here please" he lifted his finger off the button and Nurse Jacky entered "What can I do for you principal Snyder?" He pointed at me "I need you to drug test him please" she nodded and took me by my arm into her office. "I am sorry Wyatt you need to pee in front of me" I squirmed "No I can't show you my junk" I said "Fine you can turn around and go but I need to be present" she handed me a cup and I unzipped my pants turned around and peed into the cup almost filling it. When I was done I handed it to her "Now wait here I am getting the principal" I sat on the bed and watched as the posters with smiling faces started singing it was quite a catchy tune. The principal walked in with the nurse trailing behind "Wyatt your test came back negative for everything, which is a concern. I have asked your mom to come in and have gone through your file, I noticed you have conditions that are quite challenging so no you are not in trouble we want to help. We don't have enough knowledge or the resources here for your condition." He finished, I have a condition my body goes numb and all I want to do is go back to bed and wake up from this nightmare. I thought this was over I stuck with my meds and I hadn't freaked out. So, what happened that he thinks I am not ok? It's a bit of a blur from there, mom walked in and then I was in an office and some guy was asking me questions about Steven and Sarah. "So, when did you start seeing these two friends of yours?" I looked at my mom worrying that I did something wrong "Go ahead honey" she looked angelic and smelt of frangipani, her blonde hair framing her slim face "They were around for a while I can't remember when, they just started being my friends and sitting with me under the bleachers away from the other kids who think I am weird. I think it was about two months ago," he wrote something down "Wyatt is Steven and Sarah here right now or is there someone else here?" I thought that this guy must be crazy "Of course not, it's just my mom, me and you in the room" he looked at my mom "Wyatt your mom is not here it's just you and me" I looked over to an empty seat and I stood up suddenly knocking the chair back and backing up against the wall "WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY MOM!" I started screaming "Wyatt calm down she wasn't here I promise you it was just us" I felt dizzy and mom walked in after hearing me scream. She had different clothes on and when she touched me I grabbed on to her tightly. "It is ok Wyatt I am here just breath baby" mom was standing there, and the corners got fuzzy before they faded, and everything went dark. I vaguely remember hitting my head when I went down. In the dream I saw Steven and Sarah sitting next to my bed while I floated above and looked down, they were concerned, and Steven whispered "We left it too long. We should have told him now he will be out of reach" I waved but they didn't see me then bright light woke me up....