try to keep the rain from falling down
I lay on my side
And tuck my knees in
I'd cry you a river, maybe more
If only I could change the past
If only I would've been a little faster
If only this
If only that
I keep thinking about what I should have done
If only you'd never met me
If only I'd never let you close to me
If only you hated me
If only I hated you
Why did we grow so close?
Why did I have to make a mistake?
I ask myself why most nights and days
Your face haunts my nightmares
I still hear you laughing in my dreams
When I close my eyes-
I see your smiling face
I swear when I'm walking alone,
I can feel you holding my hand
I remember you always being there
Not a moment went by,
When we weren't together
I cried on your shoulder-
And you cried on mine
We stayed up late together
Always talking and laughing
Always happy together
Why did I have to be such a mess?
Why did I ruin everything?
Why did you ever meet me?
Why did you stick by my side?
Why would I let you in?
Why would I do that to you?
Now I can't rewrite my wrong
I can't fix the mess I made
I can't take back anything
If I could-
The day I met you, I'd say goodbye
I'd tower high
I know you'd follow closely behind
But I'd take a risk and jump down
You wouldn't dare come after me
You wouldn't risk the fall
You know you wouldn't survive
I'd break the road behind me,
So you couldn't follow
I'd swim in the ocean and sink to the floor
You'd never follow,
Because you lungs aren't strong enough
I'd climb the highest mountain,
And starve for days
You couldn't make the climb,
And your stomach wouldn't last
I'd walk for days on end
You wouldn't last a day
I'd keep some distance between us
I'd make it so you'd never stand beside me
A life long game of tag we'd play
You'd never be able to catch me
If you get close,
I will push you down and run
But If you managed to catch me,
Then you'd be the one to run
I would never chase you
I'd only follow from a distance-
Make sure you weren't in any danger
If you need help,
I will offer it then run away
Sadly, this is only a fantasy
You see,
I wish this was how our relationship was
But I didn't run fast enough
You caught me
It was your turn to run,
But instead, you didn't move
Our game of tag ended the day we met
I wish I had just run
I'm so sorry
Why did I do this to you?
I wish I could change the past
But I can't
