Making it together

Chapter 20

Chapter 20 Taylor’s POV

 

I hold onto Zack with my life. I don’t want to go again. I don’t want him to leave me. “Baby. I need to get the doctor and tell them that you are awake.” Zack tries to pull out of my grip but I pull him back to me. “Please. I want you to get better. I love you and I’ll be back in two minutes max. Okay?” I nod my head meekly and he gets up and goes to get the doctor. His warm body leaves my side. I feel colder. I pull up the blanket to my chest.

 

As soon as he leaves the room a bundle of pink and sparkles running towards me. Lily stands up on the chair that Zack was sitting on. “Tay tay!” She reaches across me and hugs me tight. “I missed you Tay tay. Zacky was upset. I sad.” I pull her onto the bed. She cuddled into my side.

 

“Lily I love you too. When I was sleeping I saw your Mum.” She stopped and looked up at me. “She helped me because I was sad. I couldn’t see you both so she was there and gave me hugs and told me to give them to you. She told me that she loves you and misses you so much, but she looks over you and protects you.” Lily nods her head and snuggles into my side.

 

“Good afternoon Ms. Kelly.” I looked up and found a doctor standing at the end of my bed. He was old. He had greying hair and his face was slightly sagging. He had small glasses perched on the end of his nose and another pair in the side pocket of his lab coat.

 

“I am Doctor Page. I will be your doctor for you time here. Your have been in a coma for three days now. There was nothing terribly wrong with you. Your body went into a coma because of the crash. The coma gave time for you body to heal. You had a minor concussion due to the accident. When you came in we had to give you two blood transfusions. You lost quite a bit of blood in the crash but everything should be good now. I need to talk with both you and Zack when Lily’s not in the room.” I nod. Zack picks up Lily and takes her out to my parents. He comes back and sits on the side of the bed with me. Doctor Page came in and sat down in the chair by my bed.

 

“Okay. The news I am going to tell you is upsetting.” I nod my head and look to Zack. He has a heartbroken look on his face. “Zack already knows. I had to tell him. Taylor I’m very sorry you were pregnant.”

 

“Wait why is being pregnant bad? I’m excited. I love Zack. He’ll stay with me right? We can raise this baby toget-”

 

“No, I’m sorry. You were pregnant. Past tense. You suffered a miscarriage due to the crash. I am so sorry for your loss.” His face shows pain . I let my head down meekly. I feel streams of tears falling down my face and onto Zack’s shoulder.

It feels weird. Crying over somthing I never knew I had. But, I guess it's my child. And I lost them. A part of Zack and I

 

Zack wraps me in his arms. We don’t say anything. we just sit there wrapped up in each others arms. We spend the rest of the day like that. My parents come in and give me a hug and kiss. They reassure me that it’ll be okay and That our baby is up with Susan. I know she/he is going to be looked after so well.

 

“Baby.” I look up at Zack. “I was talking to your parents. They told me we should get something that can be for our baby. We can take it with us while we travel so we can always have it with us.”

 

“How about we get an angle. Our baby is our guardian angel in heaven. They’ll look over us with your Mum. Maybe we should name him/her. We can use a unisex name since we don’t know their gender?”

 

“I love it. How about Charlie? It works for a girl but also for a little boy. It can be you, me and our little boy Charlie.” I nod my head. I like that name. I am still upset but all this helps. Talking with Zack has helped me. “Your Mum wants to talk with you. Alone. Is that okay?”

 

I nod my head and Zack walks out of the room. A minute or so later my Mum walks in. She walks straight up to me wrapping me in a tight hug. “I love you so much honey. I am so sorry you lost your child.” She sits up on my bed with me. I hug into her chest. I rest my head in the crook of her neck like I used to do when I was a child.

 

“I know Mum, I know.” We stay on the bed in our bear hug. Neither of us talk. We just sit there together.

 

“Honey, I know when I found out I couldn’t have any more children after both you and Dean I was distraught. I know this is not the same,but I know how much you love children. Something you got from me I think. But you look after Lily so well and care for all kids and even your friend that act like kids, that boy, was it Greg… No no, George.” I giggle but still am some what crying. “But back on topic. I know this would have been hard. But remember honey, you can still have a chance of getting pregnant. Maybe when you’re older. You are both quite young, but I’m not saying if you had this child I wouldn’t be happy but I would be. But take sometime. Be Teenagers. Have fun. Be singer make your career bigger and when you’re both ready you can settle down and start your big family. Yes, I will make you have a big family. I want many grandkids to spoil.” By now I am laughing my head off.

 

“Hey think of the pain I will have to go through giving birth so many grandkid.” Mum laughs.

 

“Maybe after a few, I may let you have less.” I shake my head. She is one crazy women.

 

“Zack and I were talking. We wanted to get an angel figurine for Charlie.” Mum looks confused.  Oh right Charlie. “We named our baby Charlie. We don’t always want to refer to the baby as him or her and Charlie is a unisex name. It is away we can still remember Charlie.” Mum looks at me with teary eyes.

 

“Oh honey that is beautiful.” She hugs me. “Dad and I will take you to the jewelers when you get out. “ I nod my head.

I am so glad I have my Mum. She has helped me through this time in my life. She helps me through every time. But I am also thankful I had Susan there while I was unconscious. She must have known. She prepared me for what happened and that helped me through this time too.

Hey world,

I know it's not long but I'm gonna try and update soon.

Love you all,

Kathy xxx