best friends

chapter 11. Veela-Talk

When i got back into mine and rons room, i grabbed my bag and started to pack as quietly as i could not waking up ron.

After i got done packing i apperated to a random place.  When my feet touched solid ground, i found myself in the sitting room of Shell Cottage. I mentally cursed myself because i was aiming for my bedroom or my dorm back at hogworts  since i knew Fred couldn't follow but i didn't want to raise questions from Fleur or Bill either if they found me in the sitting room.

I dropped myself in the nearest sofa chair and let my head fall into the palms of her hands. "I'm so stupid. Of course he feels obligated to date me now since he's my best friend." I mumbled to myself. Silent tears started to fall down my face but i didn't dare wipe them away. I ought to be crying for my stupidity in thinking that a Weasley twin could find me attractive for just being herself. Ron didnt work out and neither did harry. "Stupid, stupid, stupid."

An oomph! sounded next to me and i instantly froze. "Mind telling me who or what is so stupid?" I recognized the deep voice of Harry and, as discreetly as i could, i wiped the tears off my face and lifted my head. I knew that there was nothing i could do for the redness or puffy-ness of my eyes so i settled for directing my gaze away from him.

"I am." I confessed. Figuring that Bill knew too much for his own good to begin with, i decided that laying the truth down would save them a lot of time. "I found out that i liked fred and george the entire time and i was just pushing my feelings away farther and farther so i could be with ron. It doesnt help that we found out ron's my mate from Dumbledore. Whatever that means. At first I was excited but then he said that if he was really my mate, that we'd better get together soon and that we  can't run away from each other...i dont want to be with ron i want to be with fred." I sniffled. "Ron and i didnt break up because i found out he kissed run because of a spell he was under. I mentioned to ron that after we got done with hogwarts...i wanted married and to have kids. Ron made it sound like he has to date me. We're still young and being tied down at a young age isn't something he'd want. He kind of made it seem like I took his opportunities away from him. Fred and i always liked each other since i first came to Hogwarts. "

Bill sat next to my, his arm now reaching out to me and wrapping her in a side-way hug. "Both of your opportunities didnt get taken away." I sighed and Bill pulled me in closer to sit back next to him. "You won't find true happiness with anyone else and if Fred were to date someone else, you'd live in constant jealousy and eventually lash out at his girlfriend. You would do the same with ron because of how you feel about them both Luna."

I slumped my shoulders in defeat and faced him head on. "I know." I groaned. "I guess part of me what just hoping to have what you and Fleur have with ron while at the same time ignoring fred trying to get my attention."

"You can. You can have it with them both. You just need to do pros and cons with them and see who is better for you. After all if the letters you send me about ron hurting you it seems like fred would be better for you after all. Hell even george would and this is coming from their brother."

"No. Ron and i cant. I can't choose either of them over the other because i dont want to hurt them and have them leave because i chose the wrong brother." My voice sounded more firm. "When you and Fleur got together, you got together because you were both attracted to one another and enjoyed each other's company. The both of you took the time to know each other. With ron and I...at first it was the same. But as we grew up...we started to get more toxic and fight nonstop about the littlest things. But with Fred and I.." i paused, trying to make a way for Bill to see where i was coming from. "With Fred and I, we're not being forced to be together just because he's my best friend. We actually had the chance to see if either of us was attracted to the other or any other fun things that new couples get to do. We didnt get thrown into this and it's not fair to either of ron or i because it feels like me and ron are just being forced by Molly. For god sake im a Veela. I love doing love potions and charms and thats all im known for. I get bullied every day because of it."