The second the sun touches my skin on the other side of the barbed wire chain link fence, I am truly free. It doesn't matter that I have to meet with my probation officer, or that I don't exactly have any place to go. All that's important is I'm not rotting within those cement walls anymore.
My twenty years are finally up.
The taxi idles, puffs of exhaust eddying into the cold February air. The dead of winter is a shitty time to be homeless, but even that thought doesn't dampen my spirits. Prison wasn't terrible, but it wasn't like being outside. Inside, I was just a caged animal throwing myself at the bars, bruising and bloodying myself in defiance. I was in segregation more times than I can count, and I'm lucky I got out five years early.
I'd kiss the fucking ground if the guy behind the wheel wasn't already eyeing me warily.
I slide into the backseat, warmth from the heater enveloping me. A sigh nearly escapes my lips. It's been so long since I was really, truly warm.
Through the rearview mirror, the taxi driver continues to question my sanity. He isn't prejudiced. "Where to, sir?" he asks, his voice void of any accent. He could be from Anywhere, America. Actually, the United States could've sunk into the bowels of hell while I was inside, for all I know. Maybe this accent is the new norm.
I squint at him, trying to decide whether I've lost my fucking mind or if this is really the way things are now. He even looks racially ambiguous, with a broad hooked nose, green eyes, and olive skin.
The newspapers I managed to get my hands on were always old, and the old men hogged the lone fucking TV all day. I have no clue what's going on in the world. Or where I'm going.
Maybe he takes pity on me, because his eyes soften and he clears his throat. "How long have you been in, sir?"
I really wish he'd stop with the sir, but it's better than what I've been called. What I am. Who. "Twenty years," I tell him.
He nods real slow, then he rubs his chin, the stubble not quite poking through yet. It's too early in the day. It's another difference between us. My goatee is scratchy. I didn't have time to shave this morning.
"Well," he says finally. "We have a woman president."
This I knew. I start to tell him that I haven't been living in a fucking hole, but that would not be true. "Isn't that something," I reply.
He shoves the taxi into drive and pulls away from the only home I've ever known. I've been inside longer than I'd been alive when I went in.
A sliver of panic creeps in. I don't know how to cook or how to drive a car. It seems ridiculous, pathetic. And I still don't know where I'm going. I have no one on the outside. At least, I don't think so.
During the first year, I had visitors. Then they trickled into phone calls, faded into letters, until finally, nothing. I don't blame them. Twenty years is a long time, and Pennsylvania isn't exactly close to home.
The taxi driver takes me to a Days Inn. I don't even bother looking through the glass as we drive through the small town. There's not a damn thing here.
I use most of the only cash I have left to buy a room for the night, and when I leave the lobby to find my room, the taxi is already gone. Blinking into the winter gloom, it starts to sink in that I don't have any friends, inside or out.
I'm a goddamn statistic.
But the room has a shower that doesn't run cold after two minutes, and I take a half hour to revel in my first real taste of freedom. The hot water sluices over hard muscle I've been careful to build and maintain. My own mother probably wouldn't recognize me.
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