Trapped Feelings-Killugon

Unkown Emotions

I sighed as I stared at him, all his deep brown hair and chocolate eyes. "Killua!" Gon said, waving a hand in front of my face. My face turned blood red when I realized that I was staring at him. He laughed and said "Killua, are you all right? You've been staring at me for the past five minutes." I made a choking noise. "I-uhh..." I got cut off by a familiar voice. "Hey, Killua, Gon!" Kurapica said, running over to greet us. "Hi." Gon looked slightly disapointed but overall, he seemed happy to see our friend. When Kurapica reached us, he gave me a knowing look and turned to Gon. "Hey, do you mind if I borrow Killua for a second?" Gon nodded, looking confused. Kurapica smiled and made a gesture for me to follow him, and started walking towards the other side of the park. I, suprized, looked at Gon and got up to follow him. When we stopped, Kurapica smiled at me and said "You like him, don't you?" My face grew hot. "Wha- no I don't!" But I could tell that he already confirmed it, just by my response. "You don't have to lie to me, Killua. I fully support you, and I'm sure he fells the same." I groaned in fustration. "No, he doesn't, and how did you find out?" My voice sounded agitated even to me. He smiled deeper and laughed. "Is it that obvious?" My heart dropped. I felt the blood rise to my face. Kurapica saw me start to panic and put his hand on my shoulder. "Calm down. I'm sure he doesn't know how to take hints, and he probably feels the same." He was looking at me sweetly, but he broke into a grin. "So when are you going to confess?" I made a choking noise in the back of my throat. "CONFESS?!" I didn't even know how to look at him without wanting to cry, smile, or kiss him, and now he wants me to confess to him?! Saddness filled me. "I don't even know..." I sighed. "I don't even know what I feel... I don't understand this emotion. I've never felt this way before... I don't know if its love or something else, it feels like I've been stabed a million times in my heart, and like I'm drowning, but... then again, it feels like beeing held in warm arms and sunshine and beautiful things. I don't understand." I feelt my cheeks grow wet with tears. Kurapica looked suprized that I just spilled my emotions out like that, but smiled anyway, "It's alright. You are the only one who truely knows what you're feeling, but I think that you love him, even if you don't understand it. He loves you too. You can see it in the way he looks at you, Killua." He pulled me into his arms. I was shocked, no one ever had hugged me this way before besides Alluka. I smiled and wrapped my arms around him.