Physco and Alone

Mental Hospital

( Hey! You! The reader, I don't wanna trigger any of my readers. So please be aware this story contains of..
• Suicide Attempts
• Self harm talk
• Mental Hospitals
So please if their any of your triggers this is not the story for you. Happy reading!)

The sound of heels clicking down the halls haunt me...my head hurt from the sound of the silence.
My eyes hurt since I haven't gotten a wink of sleep since I've been departed in here.
The gown I wore hung just below my knees, my hair that was once always combed and neat, was now a brown knotty mess.
I hated it here...I'm not crazy, I'm not mental. My mom put me in here!
I slammed my fist against the wall, making my hand ache. I saw two red welts start to form, I didn't care.
As my nurse, Riley. Comes in she sets me down for IV, " Alright..Mark how have you been feeling? Any thoughts of suicide? Harming yourself or others? How are you?"
My teeth grinding with every word I spit out, " I'm fine. If I wasn't in this shit hole I would of been better."
Riley sighed, " Arm." She said, lifting up my arm slowly, she searched for the vein I stared down at my arms.
It was crazy how I could remember every cut on my arm. There had to have been at least thirty cuts on each arm.
" Alright your good." Riley gave me a juice box and left the room.
I looked outside, where the sun barely peaked through the dark clouds.
Rain always soothes me..it reminded me of home, the warmth of my bed, the warmth of my mother's hand through my hair.
The smell of fresh pumpkin pie when I got home from school.
That was before the fire.
My mother hasn't been the same every since she lost my brother. She would blame things on me, and started to become more and more violent with her words.
She was the one who thought I was crazy.
One day...I just snapped.
My hand stung from the slap, my lips bled from how hard I bit them.
It was raining the day I got departed.
I saw all my friends..Sean, Felix...Wade. Oh. The hurt in Wades eyes as I stared back at them.
I saw small tears form in his eyes. I rolled my eyes.
As I heard the door open again, I saw another nurse come in, I never remember a lot of nurses names. But I really never bothered to ask.
" Mark...you have a visitor." I laid down on the bed and put my back towards her, " Don't wanna." I said in a quick response.
" Come on Mark. I think it would be the best for you too talk to some old friends."
I groaned, as I walked down the long narrowed hallway.
Hearing slight sobs from patients..some yelled in anger, some sadness. At this point I've been in and out of here for so long I don't even feel emotion when I'm in here.
I saw two guys, I forgot what my friends looked like for a second.
Until I saw Tyler's goofy grin, " Hi guys.." I mumbled.
Sean smiled, " Hey bud...how you doing?" I looked at Sean up and down, " Ya dyed your hair green again?"
" Heh, yeah. Charity stream yah know." I nodded, I looked down at Tyler and Sean, " You guys kept the bracelets.."
Tyler lifted up a green and red bracelet, while Sean lifted up a red and orange bracelet. It symbolized our friendship. The others had them too. We made them when we were younger.
" Yeah why wouldn't we?"
" I've been here for so long I thought you all would forget about me." I rubbed the back of my neck.
" Mark...the nurses are trying to help." I felt my blood boil, " That's all their trying too do." Tyler said in a soothing voice, only wanting me to scream more.
" No what! I thought you guys would be on my side for once! You know how much bullshit I've been through! It's incredible how dim witted you guys are! The nurses are stupid! They aren't "curing" patients! Their making them more crazy. Just wait until I get back, I'll be known as "crazy" again! So fuck off! I wish I never saw you guys ever again!" I stormed off, the blood boiled with every word I said. Not regretting a single sentence.
It was the truth.
I was not crazy...this place was making me crazy.