This Prayer for You

Cold Day In Hell

With that I pushed him and stomped away. My heart was aching I never thought I would feel this pain again I- I  thought I over came it guess I was wrong im just a girl who is broken when she thought she was strong. The thoughts of my past in Ohio, all the bullys every teacher that tormented me every single beating I got and was left for dead. I looked at the mirror I saw myself then I heard my demon speak "Look at you, your hiddious down to your stomach and to your thighs. Why would Andy even stay with you?" I fell down to my knees crying but the voice continued but the bullys voice was to be heard "HA! Look its the emo freak! How deep have you cut yourself? Do the world a favor and kill yourself" I grabed my head and held it in my hands I looked up and anger and pain surged through me I got up and walked  to the mirror and punched it with all my might the feeling of the glass cutting and going inside my skin my blood started to ooze out of my knuckles. I picked up a shard of glass and examined the sharp falling down to my kness the broken glass cutting my knees as well. I looked at the piece of glass in my shaking hand it was stained with blood but I could see myself uncearly but you could still see me crushing it in my hand makeing blood trickle down my arm. Laying down on my back allowing the glass to cut my skin much more as I cried "Where did he go? What happened to the one I loved just moments ago" I choked looking at myself again I was a mess my white t-shirt had blood my legs were cut to the extreme my eyes were blood shot no longer holding the demon eyes.I took another shard of glass and held it to my wrist and soon their was thirten evenly spaced red oozing lines on my entire forearm moving to my shoulder eleven all the way down to my elbow. Turning to my already cut thighs I created new self inflicted mars. I soon fell asleep from crying and blood loss in the bed of glass and blood a single tear fell from my eye as I whispered

"If I die tomorrow, I hope you will come back to me my love Im dying for you, I just want you to be happy even if its not with me."