"why do you hate yourself so much....you are absolutely gorgeous just the way you are!"
"not for other people jungkook.....that's the way society works after all..."
"please....just focus on loving yourself! Dont even think what the people think...i...
I woke up and reach my night stand next to my bed and turn off the alarm. I yawn and rub my eyes.
another day of hell... I can already tell its gonna be tiring today plus i didnt even get enough sleep thinking about what i said to jungkook that day. Is it really a good decision? Or i just add another bad luck on me? I felt really bad saying that words to him tho...
"you're ugly and not my type.."
It's not fully wrong though. Don't get me wrong jungkook is really MY ideal type but it's just no. He deserve better from me. There are so many girls that would like to be his friend or more advance, girlfriend. I mean imagine me? A fat chubby girl friends with a good charming looking guy like jungkook or worse HIS GIRLFRIEND? Isn't that kind of weird? I know that love is blind blablabla but this is reality we are talking about not some kind of fairytale or some kind of princess stuff.... Besides the words hyuna said the other day really stab me deeply.
'you're pathetic you know that y/n? People like you deserve to be a slave for someone like me! Don't understand? Well look at me....' she show off her skinny yet sexy body to me while smirking. Sexy. Cute. Skinny. Perfect.
'now...look at YOU' she slap me and grab my hair shove me to a mirror that hanging on the walls. I look down on my dirty clothes. My face with a bruise on my left cheek. Ugly. Fat. Dumb. All the negative that comes through my mind. A single tear drop slowly from my eye. Hyuna smile as she was satisfied what she have done to me. She throw me at the side harshly before washing her hands as if i was some dirt. "poor little y/n alone......no one have her back and..." she smirk again and throw some tissues that she used to wipe her hands on me. "a fat stinky pathetic girl"
I shiver at the memories and tries to forget about it while sigh. Everyday is a living hell. It keeps repeating the same routine that's getting my hopes down and want to give up already. I know there is some hope left but at this point i dont know if it's worth it or not. This is life.
I look at mr.peggie and smile bitterly "at least you are here with me everytime" i laugh quietly. Man i miss my one and only friend. I wish he would come back so that i can spend some time with him instead cry my eyes off everyday.
I grab my phone and turn it on. My eyes began to wide open like anytime they will fall out. "7:58?!! HOLY CHICKEN NUGGETS WITH CREAMS!" i rush to the bathroom and quickly brush my teeth and wash my face. This is nuts....i never been this late to school..with all my braincell i shove all my books into my bag and take one last look at my precious teddy bear "MR.peggie i will be back soon so take care of the house for me! BYE!" and close the door and make sure to lock it before running off to school.
this is a good exercise first in the morning with no breakfast. Just nice.
I ran up straight to the school there's no time to ride a bus. I was zoning out for too long thinking about my life and didn't realise the time. I can imagine mrs.Koh's face while looking mad like a dinasour with a whip on her hand waiting for the students who came up late in her class. Oh no i'm going to die today for sure. I pick up my speed not caring for the weird stare from the people around me. Perhaps i look like an elephant escaping from a circus. Screw it I will think that later.
I slow down my pace as i reach the school gate. Take a deep breath before enter the school aka hell of torture. "i...should really...huh go....to the....gym..." mumble to myself as i grab everything and put the rest of my books in the locker and quickly get into the classroom. i'm so sweaty after all that run good think i bring my perfume just in case i smell bad. Actually i could just skip school today its not like i want to come either but then i remember my grandma told me when i was a kid that i'll end up live under the bridge if i always skip school. Yep.
Once i'm infront of my class i peek through the doors in case the teacher is teaching and lucky for me i didnt see any teachers and it seems like the class didnt started yet. I sigh relief and close my eyes while my hands on my chest thank you to the angel and god for saving me this time.
"what are you doing?"
"god save me today so i than- what.." i stop and turn around to see such a beautiful brown eyes staring at mine. I look up to see jungkook dangerously standing very close to me. Woah his eyes are hella gorgeous and it's twinkling. I stare at his eyes and slowly look at his lips. Gurl.... His lips looks so soft. Wait....it's tug upward and turn to a smirk. Then i just realize i was checking him out. Well done y/n you're not just a mean but a pervert might as well be a stalker or a psycho huh?
I back away and lower my head to cover my embarrass self who just check a guy out like some kind of pervert hungry girl i am. "i-i'm sorry uh it was an accident so um just that i space out for a moment..." i blurted out some bs in hope that he will fall for it.
"by staring at my lips y/n?" he ask in a teasing voice while grinning widely. Damn it. Is it that obvious? I should kill myself with a spatula or just buried alive.
"it is obvious i can see that you look like you want to suck me alive!" my eyes become more wide. Did i say that out loud? I panick and stutter to come off an idea to change the topic. "uh a sheep does not like.....tomato but the sheep likes straw.....berry?" that's it y/n go kill yourself. JUST DO IT. THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING I CAN'T HANDLE THE SECOND EMBARRASSMENT ANY LONGER.
It was silent for a moment before jungkook start to laugh so hard while clenching his stomach. At least i get to make someone's morning bright i guess? I just stand there confuse on what to do. Should i just go or should i wait for him? I just start to laugh awkwardly don't know what to do "oh my god that was random y/n" he giggle and suddenly jungkook grabs my hand and walk into the class while the other student whispering looking at us. "w..wait we can just walk side to side no need for holding hands jungkook..." i shake his hand off from mine but as expected his hand holds mine firmly but not that strong. "i like it this way.." he smile cutely at me before he glare at the whole class makes them silent. I was shocked too as i look at them lower their heads in fear. Eh?
Jungkook came closer to me and talk in a slow yet quiet voice after we sat down on our seat.
"you know y/n...you can be cute and weird at the same time" he giggle as he continue. Could i just squish his cheeks? He just so cute i would smas- no that was kind of harsh. He just so adorable like a cute rabbit.
"that's one of the reason i love about you.." and then he kiss my ear while i froze up my eyes are about to pop off.
"what in the froggish bubble was that for..." as my face heat up.
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