My First Love

Chapter 2

You seemed satisfied with everyone, and our friendship was very... queer. I thought that maybe... it would've been the best for you to be unaware, so that I don't interrupt your life. Your friends... don't seem to like me very much." He shrugged his shoulders and laughed, but there was a sad, distant look in his eyes. Renae could barely stand to look at him in this state." " Tears rushed to Renae's eyes. She remembered. Everything. 'If you wanted the best for me then... Why did you tell me now, idiot!' She knew that those words may have hurt him, but she had to blurt it out. Everything. Her whole life was fine this whole time, while he had to go through all this time, knowing that our promise may never be fulfilled? Knowing that I may never know him again? " He looked her, with the same, distant eyes. Her mind was racing. 'What were you doing! You... you idiot! What do you mean my life was better off without you! You can't be replaced!!!" "She was yelling at the top I her lungs. She felt infuriated, but also felt very bad. He came closer. She got up. 'I'm sorry', he whispered in her ear. She blushed. She was scared. He was so close. In a way, she knew he wouldn't harm her. Yet, she felt something in her brain telling her, 'RUN! GET OUT IF HERE!'. Her heart, however, was telling her something too. 'It'll be alright.' He came closer. It was only them, and the sun was setting. 'The look in your eyes... It doesn't suit you. Please go back to the person I knew.' she thought. " 'This time I didn't remember... Has this look in your eyes grown during this time?' She wanted to run away. As far as she could. To live a normal life without little struggles like these. To be a good student, get a good job, and be a good person. Renae was down-to-earth. Most of the times. Most of the times, she would've shrugged everything off. 'I'll make new friends. Whatever. I'll have more crushes, whatever.' She would say, over and over to herself. She didn't want to crack. All she wanted was to be happy. She told herself lies in order to keep herself happy. She felt like she was sinking. Suddenly, like a ray of light in the bottom of a dark ocean, he whispered. "It's okay to cry. It's okay to grieve. It's okay to be sad. Everything... is going to be alright." He leaned in and...