(ON HOLD) 𝐂𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐊𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐘𝐨𝐮 | 𝐀.𝐇

chapter two.

*flashback*
September 29th 2002
y/n's pov

"It's been 3 weeks since I've joined the team and Hotch still won't talk to me about anything other than cases." I thought to myself. I walked out of the bathroom doors and made my way back to my desk. I sat down and Derek made came out of Hotch's office and started walking towards me.

"Hey princess, we're going for drinks later, Hotch can't make it but I was hoping you'd be there" my face automatically dropped at his words "Hotch won't be there?" I was confused as to why I cared so much that he wouldn't be there, it's not like we're friends or anything. "Yeah of course I'll be there, what time?" I asked "8:00 sweetness. Dress hot" I laughed at his words "You got it. I'll see you there" he walked off I started back on my paperwork.

Hotch came out of his office and told us we could all leave at 6:30, it was currently 6:13 so I decided to finish my paperwork and head to penelope's "lair". I opened her door and made my way over to her. She turned her chair around with the widest grin "Hello beautiful!!" She said while pulling you into a hug "Hi Pen" I said with a smile "Are you coming for drinks tonight? Derek told me Hotch wasn't coming." I told her "Duh I'm coming, wait why did your voice change when you said Hotch wasn't coming? Oh my goodness Y/n do you like him!!"

I could feel my face turning red "I don't like him, he's just my boss. I don't like him, I mean sure he's very attractive, and a good person, and single.. but he's my boss." I reassured myself. "What? Of course not Garcia! He's my boss nothing more." I replied "See right there! You're getting way too defensive to not like him, and plus we've all seen the way you look at each other!" She said with a smirk on her face.

"Well I'm afraid I have no clue what you're talking about. I'll see you tonight" I said turning my back to walk out "Whatever you say love birds!"

I made my way down the hall to the elevator, I pressed the main floor button and started thinking "Is it really obvious how I look at him? What did she mean "The way we look at each other"? Does hotch look at me the same way? There's no way, he doesn't even talk to me." I was snapped out of my thoughts when the elevator doors opened, it was now 6:40 which meant I had less than an hour to get ready.

Once I got home it was 7:00, I rushed inside and went straight to my closet. I picked up my emerald green dress and put it on, it landed mid thigh and accentuated all my curves, I grabbed a pair of gold stilettos and made my way to the bathroom, I grabbed my curling wand and plugged it in, while waiting for it to heat up I applied my makeup, I decided to go with a nude eye and clear lipgloss since I didn't want to apply too much.

After lightly curling my hair and putting my shoes on it was 7:45 so i needed to leave soon. I grabbed my purse and keys and headed out the door.

I made it to the bar just after 8:00. I walked in and saw the team sitting in a booth in the back. I got to the booth and Derek was the first one to speak "Holy shit baby girl! You are looking f-i-n-e tonight." As he motioned for me to spin around. I slowly spun around and then sat down.

The team already had 2 rounds of shots waiting at the table when I got there, we went through them pretty quickly, and we were all tipsy in no time. Rossi insisted on getting another round, so while he went up to the bar Penelope dragged all of us including Spence out onto the dance floor. We all started dancing to the rhythm of the song, well all besides Spencer.

I suddenly felt lightheaded so I made my way back to the booth. I felt a presence next to me, I looked up and saw it was Hotch. He was wearing a black button up with black jeans, the top button undone. As I looked him up and down my drunk mind began wandering "Dear god.. the way his shirt is hugging his biceps, the rolex on his wrist, the way those few hairs are out of place hanging over his forehead, the way he was smiling at me, the veins on his hands, the pants that are almost too tight in all the right places" my thoughts were interrupted when Hotch finally spoke.

"Y/n, why aren't you out there with the rest of the team?" He asked taking a seat. "I was feeling lightheaded but I'm all good now, wanna join me?" "Oh no I'm not the dancing type, but you go have your fun" He responded. As I stood up the alcohol took over me, "You know Hotch, you look hot as fuck right now. If you weren't my boss I'd 100% jump your bones" I stated while giving him a smirk and walking off to the rest of the team.

I glanced back at hotch and his face was hard to read. You didn't know if it was confusion, anger, shock, excitement or all of the above. I made my way over to derek and started moving my hips, he wrapped his arms around my waist and started moving with me. "So Y/n who are you putting a show on for?" He asked you "No one. Just feel like dancing" I responded apathetically. "Right whatever you say princess" he said and went back to dancing with me.

A few minutes later I felt eyes on me, as I looked around the room I saw everyone was preoccupied with drinking, kissing, or dancing with someone. I looked over at the booth and saw hotch staring at me with a certain emotion in his eyes that I just couldn't figure out.

About 2 hours later after drinking multiple glasses of water I sobered up a bit since I was driving myself home. We all had made our way back over to the table and were talking. Hotch's phone began to ring and we all shared a look with one another "Agent Hotchner".. "Yes I'm with them"..."Yes"... "Alright".. "Yes we'll be there asap"

Hotch stood from the table and told us we had a case, we all stood and made our way out of the doors while Rossi took out money to go pay. I got in my car and made my way to the BAU.

I pulled up about the same time as Spencer, Rossi, Penelope, and Emily. The rest of the team was already there, I made my way through the doors and to the elevator, I got on with penelope and she automatically turned to me with a huge grin on her face "So Y/n, are we gonna talk about the way Hotch was staring at you tonight or are you gonna ignore it just like your feelings for him?" She asked me.

"Penelope he was not staring nor do I have feelings for him, end of story. Please leave it alone" I told her. "Keep telling yourself that chica" She said while the elevator doors opened. I walked out of the elevators and straight into the bullpen, I asked the team what was going on and no one knew. We all made our way to the round table and waited for Hotch.

He walked in I noticed his breathing was heavy and he had sweat on his forehead, I was confused as to what was wrong with him but I brushed it off. Penelope stood and turned on the screen "Ok my loves you all are flying to Glendale, Arizona. 3 body's have been found at construction sights with severe burning all over, They've been identified as Tina Newman 27, Carter Young 30, and Lamont Smith 31, no signs of sexual assault and no connection between the three."

She sat down while Hotch closed a file, he stood and looked at you all "We'll discuss more on the jet. Wheels up in 15, and Y/l/n my office please" I raised a brow, stood from my chair and followed him to his office.

I walked in front of him and he closed the door behind me. "Take a seat Agent" I sat down while he made his way to his chair. My mind was racing as to what he was about to say, I then remembered what I said at the bar "You know hotch, you look hot as fuck right now. If you weren't my boss I'd 100% jump your bones" He began to speak "Y/n what was said at the bar-" I cut him off "Listen Hotch I know what I said was unprofessional, I was drunk. I'm sorry. Can we please just ignore it, it's quite embarrassing".

"Y/n don't be embarrassed. As you said you were drunk, but if I recall correctly there is a saying that drunk thoughts are sober words." He says while raising a brow at me

"What do you mean sir?" I say while my bottom lip quivers, I can feel my face getting red.

"I mean I know what you think about" He says with a stern face and a low voice

"I'm afraid I don't know what you're talking about sir" I say while my voice cracks

"Don't play dumb with me. I know it wasn't a mistake. I see the way you look at me, as I said I know what you think about Y/n" He says sternly

I watch him adjust his watch while he looks up at me "I'll see you on the jet Agent" He states while standing up making his way to the door, he turns around facing me again and starts to speak "Just so you know Y/n

I think those things too."