I'm not much of a person to explain my feelings so I try to drop hints.It doesn't work well.But ever since some boy came along I feel "happy".My BFF tells me lies.My BFF is someone I care about.And so is my other BFF.I wanna be happy for them.But sometimes my heart can't take it.I lie saying "yeah I'm fine".No I don't think I'm depressed.I just think that being to happy makes me "happy".At night when I'm mad or upset I talk in the mirror telling it I need to be the perfect person making sure everyone is happy.But when I wake up I smile go in the bathroom and struggle.I'll start twitching,perfecting my smile and going on with my day.My body is in pain.Is it something to worry about?Nah probably just from running around or staying in bed.But one thing I get mad about is boys.Is that why I can't feel love?Do people think I'm clingy?yea.Do people find me annoying and weird?Yeah.Do people like me and want to use me for my looks?Yup!Do some people like me for my personality?Yeah!I think.I Handel a lot on my own.My parents are kinda strict and won't let me have a lot of social media apps.So I get mad.I deal with a lot of people's emotions.I help my family.My bffs,friends.I wanna do my best and live every day like it's my last.I know crying is good for me so I do it every once in a while but a lot of times it turns in to anger.My parents said my attitude changed.So I guess that's why.I don't know what to do so if someone is reading this what should I do?(Cough cough anger issues cough cough)
