Drifted: Fragment Memories

Chapter 3

Chapter 2: Reasons

"I swear I'm going insane," I say to myself as the bell signaling the beginning of second period. Michaela, who overheard me walked up to me and hugged me from behind. It's strange. Every time she does that I feel safe. If you're wondering about her actions there's a reason. During ESY also known as Extended School Year which I attended over the summer. It only took about four weeks from summer break. There were only four classes which were surprisingly easy mostly because I have never went to summer school before. Well one day around the second or third week, Victor was talking about someone he knew and all of a sudden I began to open up to not only Victor but to Michaela as well. I couldn't even stop myself from telling them. I just... went for it. In my mind, I was scared. I didn't know if they could accept the whole thing. After I finished my side of the story, I waited. And waited. And waited. I didn't know what response I was going to get from them. All I remember and remember it clearly, "I didn't think you had such a bad life." Victor who's voice was surprisingly calm said that to me. I never thought that someone who doesn't know me that well but I've been there for him in a way and helped him when he had to deal with a situation would feel guilty that all of the things I said to them and see that I have nothing to fear. I slowly started to shed a few tears. I was handed a tissue from Michaela who walked over to get it when she saw my tears. I guess some people can see my side... I woke up this morning with some tears in my eyes and had the feeling of being anti-social today. To be honest, ever since the start of middle school, I've been distant with many people including my parents. When I first moved here, I was called an Uncultured Swine or anti-social pig by some asshole. I laugh at it now, because it's true. I began to get dressed and headed out of the apartment to wait for my bus. The early mornings are a bit cold now since it's close to winter and it's only November. Surprisingly, I manage to withstand the cold but not all the time. I pulled out my headphones, plugged them into the phone and began listening to Reverse by Cillia. It might shock you but probably not. I'm big into foreign music whether it's Chinese, Korean, or Japanese. I listen to about anything but today it was Cillia. I found the song, Interesting and comforting since I can relate to the song. Well sort of... The bus arrived and I finally got on and sat in the middle row on the left side of the bus. I mainly sit there since no one really takes it. Joey and Jason were already on the bus by the time I got on. Those two also go to the same school. I don't talk to them much but they're interesting in a way. The bus finally began to move and heads to another students place. All I did was lay back, look out the window and listen to my music. After a couple minutes, I notice Kenny standing out by the sidewalk as the bus came to a complete stop letting him on. Kenny from knowing him a little is a really cool guy. I mean it. I don't know too much but I know him enough to actually consider him as a friend. As he was going to his seat, he gave me a friendly push letting me know he said hey. I wave back to him right before he sat down on the seat behind me. The bus began to move again and it was the same thing for a little while.  It will be the always be the same... After a couple minutes we reach Sairam's house. Sairam is a senior at the school and very friendly. Sairam walks out of the door and heads towards the bus. He gets on and sits next to me. He usually sits next to me until we get to Johnny's house. Johnny, the cocky bastard who happens to go to our school. He claims that he's one hundred percent black. He's only a quarter African American and looks Caucasian. He acts like he's black when he really isn't. He's probably one of the most stupidest people I have met in my entire life besides another student that I know. The bus stops at Johnny's place and he gets on. Of course, Johnny has to say something to get someone's attention. I swear, half the time I want to bludgeoned him into a coma but what would be the point of that? "Sairo!" Johnny said loudly to Sairam as he gets to his seat which is next to Kenny on the right side of the bus. Usually I don't pay attention to him, not only because he's a god damn idiot but arrogant. Sairam who heard Johnny paid no attention to him and continued listening to his music. After several and I mean several minutes with a bit of traffic, We finally arrive at the school. As everyone was getting up from the uncomfortable bus seats and exit the bus, I took a small moment to mumble something quietly under my breath. "When?" I'm not sure exactly why I said it but for some small word, it seemed to have a big reason for it. I got to homeroom a moment later and opened the door. Trevor Vowels, one of my friends at the school was sitting at one of the desks talking to John about Halo 5 one of the new games coming out this year I believe. I stand next to Trevor while he talks to John. At that moment, I start thinking to myself. I wonder how I can handle this life of mine... My thoughts were stopped when Dominic stepped inside. Dominic is.... well sort of someone that I don't really talk to anymore. There's a few things that made me stop talking to Dominic but I guess I'll explain those later. Dominic walks up to me and says, "Chris. Do you have a moment to talk?" I look up at him and nod. He further explains his apology for why I stopped talking to him. I apologized as well since I might've put it out badly. After we spoke, the first period bell rang. Everyone got up and heading to their class. As I'm walking to my tech class, I starting thinking about something but slowly realizing that I'm only thinking about the cruel past.