New Girl

He is Back

Anna's P.O.V

I felt like my whole world stoped. Zane is out and he is coming for me I havnt eaten or sleeped in the last 24 hours since Nate gave me zanes message . He killed 2 young girls because of me because zane talked about me in prison like I still belonged to him .

I was standing in the BAU building i was in Garcia's little Internet world she likes to called it . She was trying to make me smile but this time there was nothing anyone could do to make me smile untill zane was back in jail but he didnt kill anyone so there isnt any reason legally for him to go back untill he slips up . Reid has been trying really hard to help me threw all this and he has been amazing . Hotch told me to take a few days off and as much as I wanted to  decline I accepted his offer but I still didnt want to go home yet I was to afraid to and everyone understood that . Garcia found out alot of information of zane that I didnt know . His full name is Zane Anthony Williams which that I knew along with his father Victor Anthony Williams who killed my parents and is still in prison . But I never knew that his mothers name was Sandra Williams and she died when zane was 10 . Which everyone thinks that was probley his stresser also his father got arrested a year later after getting away with killing my parents for 5 years . Zane knew who i was when he first meet me that why he grew so close to me he felt like we had a connection because of the events but he never told me his true identity not even after he raped me and beat me . I remember he keeped repeating we are destined to be together that I was his soul mate . I felt sick to my stomach thinking about it . Thats when garcia snapped me out of mt thought.

Hey pretty lady you okay ?

Yeah im fine just tired is all. You sure you dont want to go home and get some sleep no im okay . Hey garcia I said.

There are a few things I need to tell you because if anything h appends to me and you have to dig into my past I rather just tell you . Anna nothing is going to happen to you we are all going to make sure of that .

I know but just incase I need you to know okay .

Okay she said.

When I was 16 when zane raped me thats not all thst happend.

Yeah I know he beat you pretty badly too.

Not only that , he got me pregnant .

Garcia looked shocked omg did you keep the baby ?

No I said starting to cry . I couldn't I was 16 i just got my acceptence letter to yale when i found out and i had no parscare. I wanted to maybe give the baby up but I felt so lost and terrified i i i diddnt know what eles to do i started to cry

You had an abortion she said with tears in her eyes feeling bad for me then she said . Look sweetie thats not your fault okay you were 16 and alone and scared you were raped its not like you made a mistake and got knocked up you never asked for that. 

Reid was standing in the door way I looked up at him and he just looked at me shocked and angry then he walked away I wiped my tears and ran after him .

Spencer ! Please jus--

Why didnt you tell me any of this anna we have known eachother for years and you never told me any of this .

We wernt talking spencer I thought you hated me .

I didnt hate you anna I was just hurt buy you but only because you also keeped the reason why you never helped me that day a secret thats all you are is a bunch or secrets you keep everything inside and never tell anyone anything untill you have to . Why ? I just dont get you ? I dont know how im supposed to trust you if you are always hiding something from me !! .

Thats not fair spencer okay I have been threw alot I watched my parents get murdered right in front of me I watched victor rape my mother over and over and he punched her 4 times then as he was still inside her her stabbed her 4 times untill she bleed out and when zane raped me it was like it was happening all over again I had no control I felt helpless . I didn't know how to tell anyone anything .  and it so hard for me to forget every single detail i cant ever get it out of my head but i try so hard so i dont talk about it .

Did Rossi know.

Not every detail but he knew about victor and knew about his son and what he had done and knew I would tell him when I was ready to tell him .

Spencer just rolled his eyes and walked away.  So that's just it your just going to walk away and not even talk to me ?! 

Yup this is what you do so maybe if I walk in your shoes I can understand you .

I walked outside and started to cry morgan came running after me.

Hey beautiful girl dont cry its okay reid is just scared of losing you he doesnt know how to react to all this . We are all just scared .

I know im scared to Derek im petrified .

I love reid soo much that all of this is killing me that he had to find out his way I wanted tell him I did and I was going to but we just finally got together and we both were just soo happy I wanted a few more days to enjoy that is that so bad to want I asked him he nodded no and said no its not then he pulled me close to him . I need to get to get some sleep I cant go to my house or Reid's . Garcia said I could crash at her house do you mind if you take me there ?

No I dont mind why dont we go inside and tell hotch he will probley just let us all go home . I nodded.