Tik tok star// b.e

-chapter 9-

A:N:⚠️ mention of anxiety paranoia depression and Suicide⚠️

5 months later
Billies POV

Right now I'm sitting in the couch with my girlfriend holding her in my arms as she cries.
Erin had came down from her room when I came over and had tears in her eyes but hasn't told me what's up and I don't wanna push it so I'll wait.

After a couple minutes she finally speaks up after calming down "Billie" she says almost in a whisper "yes baby" I reply in a quite tone "can you pass my phone" she ask me "sure bebs" I say grappling her phone from the coffe table hanging it to her.

I watch as she goes into her contacts and starts ringing someone until they pick up "hello" she says over the phone "hi Amy I was calling to see if I could book a therapy lesson?" She asks someone called Amy "yes of course sweetie what's been going on so I know what type of therapy your gonna need?" Amy asks Erin "um my anxiety has been getting really bad again and I've been experiencing constant nausea and paranoia" she answers why didn't she say? I ask myself

"yea it started getting worse about a month ago when I'm doing anything or go anywhere I feel like I am being watched you know" she asks Amy "yes that makes sense Erin I will be sure to book a session with Mr Williams and at what time would you like it?" Any then asks "I can do Tuesdays and Fridays at 9:00am in the morning is that ok?" Erin reply's "okay thank you so much Amy" she says before hanging up the phone.

She looked over at me and I could see a clear coat of tears cover her eyes "I'm scared Billie" she says quickly "what do you mean your scared love?" I asks her now holding her in my arms to make her feel as safe and calm as possible "when my anxiety disorder was really bad when I was 9-15 it was the worst years of my life I was depressed and miserable mentally and physically e-exuded and I tried to k-kill myself multiple times" she chocked on her words.

Hearing this made me want to hold her for the rest of her life same in my arms were nothing will hurt her "I understand love you should've told me before and I would've gotten some help for you but you don't need to be scared you are going to to get some help and you can always talk to me and Liam your brother, Finneas, Claudia or even Maggie and Patrick we are and will always be here for you" I tell her "I love you" she says that was the first time she said the L word making my heart flutter "I love you too Erin" I say back kissing her passionately "can we watch some movies?" She asks me "of course" I say look through Netflix.

Tuesday 10:00am
Erins POV

I just got done with my first therapy session and it was ok I guess but Mr Williams recommend that I just try rest as much as possible and focus on my metal and physical help and he also gave me medication for my nausea. He had also said about a therapy animal if it's getting worse but I'll see how it is going and I'll decide if I will need one or not.

Anyways today I've got a Calvin Klein shoot for a magazine cover which I'm hoping I get. I'm also looking at some houses for me to move into because my house has gotten old for me and I want a fresh start in life almost I mean these past couple months I've gained fame doing thing I love and talking about love I have also met Billie aka the love of my life she treats me so well I can't wait to grow old with her.

A/N: I'm going to be doing short chapters but there will be lots of chapters so it's not a short story🔮