The Trip

Her words

Abir

I was out for a business trip with my personal secretary.. Miss Aggarwal.. Mishti Aggarwal.. I have no other option or else I would have never came with her..
she is quite different.. different from others.. her big eyes which speaks a lot, her nose, her cheeks, her chirpy nature..
and her confidence.. which I really appreciate.. I still remember the incident of few weeks back when she caught fraud party who came up to sign a business deal with us.. her questions made all of them gulp in fear and I was shocked when I got to know that police was investigating for them from couple of months... she had already called the police... As soon as police got those ppl arrested I asked her how she found it out to which she answered that she overheard their conversation with someone over phone and got to know about their plan.. and she didn't have enough time to inform me and explain everything as the meeting had already started so she decided to take things in her hand.

Must say she is intelligent..I felt something strange for her.. even few times I found myself ogling at her.. but I didn't let her to find abt it... I know how to hide my emotions.. sometime I think do I l..... But no.. I can't.. I just can't repeat the same thing...same mistake.. I don't want the history to repeat itself... After she left...
Everything changed.. the happy lucky boy is no more happy... The boy who used to laugh at every next minute forgot to laugh.. forgot to love.. but my heart... Yes this stupid heart.. I doesnt listen me.. everytime she is around me.. it starts thumping loudly.. as if it's dancing around my rib cage and will come out anytime...

My thoughts broke as my car suddenly came to a halt.. I heard her winced ouch.. maybe she got hit..
I tried to ignite engine but all in vain... She asked what happened..
I told her the reason trying to start the car.. then after few tries I moved out lifting up the bonnet to figure out the reason...
I have been struggling from past ten Minutes but nothing happened.. I wasn't able to figure out what actually happened...
Suddenly I found her standing next to me..
I raised my brow asking what's she doing here... She shouldn't be here.. it's too cold outside... uh.. vo.. I was feeling suffocated inside so I came to have fresh air. she replied. Without saying anything further I again started to find fault in car so that we can move ahead.. but alas!! I wasnt able to find what the hell had happened to this damn car.. I told her the same..

When I said we would need a mechanic..
.. she replied back its not possible to get a mechanic here as it seems lone area..
She was right.. we were standing in middle of road.. oh better to say a deserted road with no cars or houses nearby..
Then we need to wait till morning.. we have no other option.. I told her..
To which we asked instantly the where are gonna stay... I thought for a while and replied that car is the only option we have now!! She nodded and we placed ourselves in our seats..and I turned the Heater on.. just bcz of her.. I saw her shivering outside and I knew she won't tell me herself to switch it on so I did it my myself..

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I looked at her, she had kept her eyes closed.. somewhere..I was feeling happy that our car stopped and here we are alone, spending time together!!.. wait what!! What the hell are you thinking abir.. stop. She is your secretary only.. ok.. but she looked so cute while sleeping.. the calmness on her face, her rosy lips, her cheeks had pinch of redness due to cold weather... Suddenly my stomach made a noise... And her eyes shot open, I immediately diverted my gaze towards opposite direction..

Shitt.. I was ogling at her again.. what if she have found abt it.. and I was so embarrassed due the noise my stomach had made just few seconds back.. urghh I should have eaten something before leaving.. I haven't eaten anything since morning... Then i noticed her taking something out from her bag.. it was a tiffin box..she opened it and the Aroma of the cheese veg sandwiches hit my nostrils... They seems tasty.. I thought..
She picked up one and forwarded it toward me..
Have it .. she said...
No no m fine.. I replied back..
Irrespective of my stomach yelling at me to take them..
She again requested me but I refused... And then her answer shocked me..she asked if I think she had mixed any poison in Sandwiches as I was adamant not to have it... I immediately denied..
I didn't meant that way..

it's just....sandwiches were one of the memory of my relationship in past.. actually they are.. uhh I mean were.. my fav.. and she used to make them for me everyday and being them to college... But then...She left ....she betrayed me..and I didn't felt to eat those anymore. Whenver I saw them it reminded me of her....even I haven't them in my past 6 years.... yess it's been 6 years to my breakup.. better to say her betrayal.. as I had loved her always...
I accepted the sandwich as I don't want her to be sad.. don't know but I can't see her like that...

As soon as I took a bite, I closed my eyes... They were delicious... Extremely delicious... Her hands have magic must say!! But today it didn't reminded me of her... I actually enjoyed eating it.. finishing it I turned toward her...it was nice. Thank you Ms. Aggarwal.. with a smile.... Words came out of my mouth itself but she popped her eyes out.. then I realised I smiled at her......
Which is really really unusual.. as I had hardly smiled in past few years and today I thanked her and even passed a smile.. I felt her staring at me.. I slapped myself mentally but I didn't wanted to look like idiot to her... so I waved hand infront of her.. saying hello.. and it worked.. she came back from her staring session... Raising my brows up I asked what happened.. pretending like nothing had happened.. she nodded her head in no..

Finishing her sandwich she laid back on seat... closing her eyes...
I again smiled at her.. remembering the way she reacted when I denied to eat the Sandwiches.. she is so cute.. isn't she...
I noticed movement of her eyeballs so before she could have opened her eyes I shifted my gaze from her...

She asked - not getting sleep.. I just nodded.. same.. she replied back...
Next minutes passed in silence.. except few eye locks.. everytime I look into her eyes I just get lost.. in those beautiful brown orbs of her.. the long eyelashes....

But suddenly she said- can I ask you something?

I nodded and she replied - why are you like this?

Wait..what!! Like this.. means..
Sorry was the reply I gave her as I didn't understood what she meant to say..

I was taken aback with her reply
She was actually asking me abt my behaviour, but when she mentioned that she don't believe m actually like this .. I was astonished.. no one in these 6 years have ever said me that!!
I can see the nervousness on her face, while she was asking the question...

I took a deep breath and replied.. Waqt ke saath sab badal jata hai Ms. Aggarwal.. Sometime situations force you to change yourself even if you don't want to..

She looked at me.. her eyes.. it looked she understood what I meant.. then she got lost in her own thoughts..
Then I saw her taking a deep breath and what she said.. I just did something to me!!!
but..past and situation only affect us when we let it too.. if we muster up our courage to fight with it.. it .. it surely helps.. just try to forget whatever happened in past .. move on in your life.. life is realy beautiful and is all about present.. don't your past let affect your present in any way...

I got a bit emotional.. as no one actually cared for me.. no one tried to talk to me.. to console me..my parents.. I mean adoptive parents had already left me when I was in last year of my college..even I lost touch with my friends and they also didn't even bothered to keep a check on me.. to call me.. to even ask if m dead or alive.. but she.. who know me only from past 4 months is sitting here consoling me.. asking me to move on...
My eyes moistened a lil.. and she noticed it... I suddenly averted my gaze and looked outside window...
How can I move on mishti.. I can't trust someone again... I want to trust you but everytime I thought abt it.. I feel scared... Scared what if you also left like others... What if you also leave me alone in this lonely world .. I just can't... I can't ...

A lone tear escaped from my eye which I quickly wiped off and looked outside....
The weather was turning to worst... Black clouds pondering over sky giving a hint of rain which can come at any moment.....

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So this was from Abir's pov.. I hope I haven't bored you all!!
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