Have you had that voice in your head yelling at you, well I have that sort of , it's just that it's an actual person yelling, but that person doesn't exist. See I have schizophrenia, i have had it since about 5 years. It started around when i started getting bullied in school. I'd come home from school sling my bookbag on the floor, and lay on my bed with my eyes closed. Then boom he's there whispering they're right you know. I'd just close my eyes tighter holding back tears. He'd say it louder each time, and I'd say shut up louder in response until my mom would come in asking if everything was ok. I'd lie and say yeah, but i could see in her eyes she knew something was wrong. She'd leave with a worried look on her face. This happend 2 more times until she bro and took me to the doctor, that's when i mentioned everything about the voices. He prescribed meds for the schizophrenia but my health insurance doesn't cover enough of it so i have to go without it. The next day when walking towards the doors to school i saw smoke coming from around the corner and i saw two kids smoking pot. I walked up to both of them and asked where do they buy the weed, they said this dude that sits behind the school after school ends. So after school I went up to him and asked his name. "What's it to you" he responded, i said i wanna buy something. He said " Ok 20 bucks for a bag." I handed him the money and got what i wanted. When i went home that day i smoked it, and it helped alot with the voices, so i started smoking every other day so i dont waste to much money. I wven gave the voices names. Garn is a rough sounding male who sounds like he smokes a pack everyday. Marc is an average sounding voice. Last is john his is a deep growly sounding voice i hear his the most often. Well that was 5 years ago, I still smoke today and about 3 years ago the voices actually took physical form. Now John, the one i heard/see most often is a shadow luckily but unfortunately that shadow is tall. So tall that he has to hunch over so he doesn't hit his head on the ceiling of which is about 7 feet above the floor. Garn is like the old man from Monster House, but mixed with a big nosed wrinkly goblin. Marc is also a shadow but unlike John he he average height but has piercing red eyes.
