He never knew (Jikook/kookmin) completed

#21

"Dear Jimin,
My lovely (ex) boyfriend. How are you right now? I hope you are happy. Or else I'll be real sad:( all my life I only wished for your happiness cause I was the one who hurt you the most. Believe me Jimin. It wasn't my intention. I really love you. I dreamed of us having a future together. We get marry, have kids then grow old together. But not everything goes as we plan. God has to be the most cruel with me. I wanted to spend my last days with you. But I knew that will hurt you more. I had no option but to act like an asshole so you would hate me and leave me. So it would hurt less. I know if I didn't hide it from you, you would give up on life and never move on. So I planned out everything with Lisa. Believe me I didn't give her the shirt you gave me as birthday present. It was a different shirt but with same design. I smiled at her in the day and cried at night thinking about you. Everytime you looked away my eyes were always on you. And let me tell you, you looked very beautiful everyday. Your face is so shiny that my eyes burned. I wish I could see you for the last time but it was better we broke up on phone. Cause that you couldn't see the tears in my eyes. I always ran away from you cause I was afraid you will catch me that I'm lying as all the symptoms were showing up. (Hey but I still had hairs on my head when I died)
When you were absent I kept myself updated about you from your neighborhood uncle (tho he was a pain in the ass. He took 10$ from me everyday!) The day you saw me in the coffee shop I actually had an appointment to the doctor. And Lisa acquainted me as she was the only one who knew about my disease. I saw you there with Hobi hyung. You don't know how hard it was for me to not to run to you and hug you. Say "I love you" over and over again. But I controlled myself. I never got to say that but let me tell you I really love you Jimin. My love for you is stronger than anything in this world. Though I hate to see you in pain I had to do it for your future. And I really hope all my hard work paid off. I hope you got someone who will tell you "I love you" and never hurt you or leave you. ( though he will never love you like me. I will always love you more) please be happy Jimin. I have lived enough. I got your love, I got everything. I have no regrets except hurting you like that. I don't know how many days I will live but I wanted to say sorry. I will forever be sorry. My love for you is stronger but my body is weak. My hands are shaking. Tho I had more things in mind to say but I sadly have to end the letter here. And for the last time let me say this Jimin. I love you. I will always love you. I may die( maybe already dead by the time you get this letter) but my love for you will never die.

❤Jungkook"

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I'm very sorry for making you cry... I just thought of this plot on a rainy day listening to "the truth untold " eventually started writing it... I didn’t even think people will read it yeah I'm sorry🥺