A/N You all know the drill, if anyone feels uncomfortable with the book then they're going to be deleted.
A/U - Sapnap betrays the Dream SMP and double teams with lmanberg, you've taken an intrest in him, but he avoids you, and pushed you away because he doesn't want to hurt you.
This takes place right before the war.
Written by Lunar.
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Sapnaps POV
I paced back and forth in my house.
What am I going to do
What am I going to do
I can't tell her
It would devastate her
Hell it would kill her
I heard Wilbur walk in, I quickly turned around a looked at him, not saying a word. He was the only one who knew what was happening in my life right now, well in mine and Y/N's life. He just looked at me with sympathy in his eyes.
"What do I do?"
Wilbur just sighed.
"Wilbur, What. Do. I. Do."
Wilbur stayed quiet for a bit before speaking up.
"Sapnap, I can't tell you what to do. You know that...
But if you want my opinion.
You need to tell her."
I stopped pacing. I just stood there for a moment, before I started rambling.
"But- but- It will devastate her, if dream finds out that she knows something- he- he- he'll- he'll kill her."
I almost whispered the last part. I felt like breaking down. Wilbur just looked at me.
===== Time skip brought to you by Sapnap Supremacy =====
Wilbur had left, I was heading out to farm. I seen Y/N. I glanced at her for a second before I started walking faster, in another direction. The wrong direction.
Once I reached an old tree I slumped down to the ground. Hell I can't even be near her without panicking. I heard footsteps coming closer. I quickly jumped up to see... Y/N
She looked up at me, she was quite a bit shorter then me. Her eyes softened when she seen me, I didn't think I looked that bad, but I guess I did. She didn't say anything, she just.. hugged me? I wanted to just give in, but I couldn't. I pulled away from her, little to non-existent grip. She looked up at my, not shocked, not surprised, but hurt.
"I- Y/N I'm-"
I lifted my arm to put my arm behind my neck, but she- she- backed up..
Fuck
She's scared of me
"I- I wouldn't-"
I tried to stutter out to reassure her, but she cut me off
"Don't"
I watched as she turned around and ran off back to her house.
I completely forgot what I was doing, I ran to Wilbur's house. Almost the second I knocked I was answered with TommyInnit and Wilbur with swords, Wilbur put his down first, then Tommy. Wilbur just looked at me, he then led me to the downstairs area of his home. We both sat down on the couch.
"What happened?"
"I- She- She- I seen her- but I ignored her- She- She's scared of me- of me- I'm suppose to be the one to protect her Wilbur not the one who scares her!"
Wilbur was trying to make sense of my stuttered confusing rambling when we heard another knock on the door. Wilbur told me to stay down here. I didn't want to, but I knew better.
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