Lost Ones

Chapter Four

𝙹𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚎 𝙻𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚠𝚗 𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚍

     "Ms.Ward, nice of you to join me today," my academic advisor Dr.Foster said to me as I took a seat in-front of his desk.

"Nice of you to have me," I responded, placing my small purse onto my lap.

He sent me a small smile before beginning to type away on his desktop computer. I knew already what he wanted to meet with me about, I don't understand why he was beating around the bush with me.

"So I'm hear to talk about your GPA and your academic hold," he began to say as I nodded my head. I was working my ass off six days out of the week just to go to college and get an education on top of trying to maintain my grades. It's crazy how this university couldn't even meet me halfway or be understanding. But I guess that's the adult life for you.

"I don't want to lecture you too much about your grades because you understand what the problem is there right?"He asked as he readjusted the papers on his desk, I nodded my head in agreement.

"Good.." Dr.Foster glanced down at the papers in front of him once before before looking at me "Are you aware that you have to pay $1589.32 by January 19th so that you can continue your education here?"

"Yes I am aware, I should be able to pay it before then."

"Great!" He sarcastically said. "I know how hard it is for a woman of your color to achieve your goals. You are not overlooked here Ms.Ward and I'll be glad to help you with anything."

"I appreciate it Dr.Foster. Is it anything else? I have to be at work in a half of hour."

"No that is all. Make sure you contact me if you have any questions and good luck!"

"Thank you." And with that I made my way out of his office.

I wasn't even sure if college was for me anymore. In less than 7 months, I'll be welcoming a child into the world who will need me 100%. I won't be able to go to work, go to school and take care of a newborn.

The thought of academic probation scared me tremendously. If I was to get put on academic probation I would get kicked out of the nursing program and be forced to study another major.

Today was October 27th, and I had sixteen days to find Syd and tell him about this pregnancy. I haven't seen him or his boys since and I think that's a good thing considering I was starting to show. I wasn't too big but I for sure didn't have a flat stomach any more.

I made my way to my car without any interruptions and began to get in my car and start it up when I was receiving a call from DJ.

"Hey DJ," I excitedly spoke before pulling out of the parking lot. No matter what day I was having, when I hear my brothers voice I instantly get happy. DJ really makes me feel better and honestly was one of the very few people who actually knew me.

"Wassup sis, what you doing?"

"Just leaving this meeting with my Academic Advisor," I sighed.

"Damn.. was it bad? What he say?"

"That I have to improve my grades and that I have to pay $1600 by January to go there next semester."

"See this why I ain't go to college, that shit a scam," he began to raise his voice. "Don't stress yourself out over it Nelle. If you want me to pay for it just say the word, I'll have it paid by the end of the day."

"You don't have to but I do appreciate the offer," I sadly said. Leave it to DJ to do whatever to make me happy. Who was going to love me like my brother?