amaguji Stories\\❤

I can feel her presence

Sorry this bad I was gonna re write on computer because I wrote this on my phone and I like to make stuff better on my computer but I can't find my computer loader Haha sorry
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I might make more stories I just I don't know I might rewrite this

Rantaros pov

Warning

Selfh❤rm

S❤icidal thoughts

Angst

Korekiyos s❤ster

R❤mors and b❤llying

Biting relief

S❤xual abuse (talking about it) 

Amaguji

I got to hurry.. Korekiyo is having a mental. Break down.. He usually texts me a black dot when he's on edge of one.. I got to hurry, good thing I have his keys.. I hurried up to his dorm room and opened the door. I look inside to see a horrifying sight. Korekiyo was sitting on the floor trying to breathe. Mask off makeup Distorted. The walls were covered with red lipstick scribbles. Korekiyo was crying and at the same. Time very close to. Screaming.. The room was messy. Some stuff been Knocked down. 

🌹"R-rantaro… . " korekiyo Spoke to me. I hurried to him  and hugged him tight."Calm down Korekiyo.. Bite if you want." He reached to me and bit my shoulders. He was crying but I could tell him biting me relieved him a little bit. (I usually bite myself to relieve myself during panic attacks and I head canon that korekiyo does the same) 

"r-rantaro… s-she… she's… . She… " The whimpering and crying made. Him unable to tell me what he was gonna say "She's still… She… I…. . I… " His breath became shorter "bite if you need to" Once again I let him. Bit into me. 

He stayed there for a little bit Calming. Himself down. "I… I… " he tried to say something but couldn't. I helped him up. His hair was a mess and as well as his makeup. I hugged him tightly 

"Now tell me what's wrong, we'll get through this together"

"I can still feel her presence around me. I'm scared…I can feel touches from her… I can feel her. Choking me…touching me...hitting me...I'm scared that everything that happened before.. My parents death being blamed on me… her Forcing me to do stuff I don't wanna..she Would use my body.. She hurt me.. I loved her.. She doesn't love me. SHE SAID SHE LOVED ME SHE LIED EVERYTHING IS A LIE!!... Now that I actually like someone I hear her saying stuff like I'm  a whore… That I hurt her… I betrayed her... That I belonged to her.. I JUST WANT THE VOICES TO STOP I WANNA END THE FEELING OF HER AROUND ME. I WANT TO END MY MEMORY AND SUFFERING I HATE MY. LIFE!!... No one wants me here anyway!!! They think I'm creepy…The scars just grow… I CAN'T STOP!... I wanna stop breathing.. The rumors are Getting worse. .. Is the exactly the same as she says… 

" He killed his parents " "He probably killed someone" "What a creepy guy he probably tried to summon a demon" "a problematic guy".. And whenever I get these breakdowns I get judged..

" Why he crying??? "  "He probably got a demon inside of him".. That's all I ever hear… People don't want me here!.. I should just kill myself!!!!!...… and now.. My scars are beginning to hurt… my body hurts… Everything hurts.. I want it all gone…". 

He vented to me… I didn't know what to say. But… I think is brave that he told me out of all people. " Korekiyo if you end your life she'll still be there.plus.. Many people would miss you. "

"Like who?... "

"Like…Me"

I looked down at korekiyo and I could see a small blush.. I chuckled a bit and hugged him again "But please never leave me.. We love you. Ryoma, Gonta, me and… maybe Miu (in this au the group contains of Ryoma,rantaro,gonta,miu,keade,korekiyo)What I'm saying is that people will he sad you die.. And plus.. If you ignore your sister she'll be gone..*

I said while I washed off the blood from his arms, he's been hitting, biting and. Cutting himself… these break downs need to get under. Control.. Before he couldn't even come to me.. But eventually he could ask for help. 

And now he can come to me for help. I finished Putting the bandaids and I put on the bandages as well. "How do you feel?". I asked

" B-better.. Thank. You for being here.. "

AMAGUJI STUFF BEGINS HERE

I look at his crying eyes. Their sore and Tired. .. I love korekiyo and I wish he knew that.. He's brave Enough to come to me for help.. I should be brave enough to come out to him.. But…Seeing him hurt like that.. Makes me Reconsider.. Maybe not now is the best moment to come out to him. 

" Hey buddy how about you go to bed.. I'll clean up ok? 

He nodded still crying a bit as he sat down on his bed. I cleaned up the walls. And picked up the Stuff that's been thrown down. I slowly walk to him, he's rather calm now.I say beside him and said nothing. 

"Hey kiyo" 

"?... "

"How would you react… if a best friend. told. You he loved you? "

"Well…Depends who"... 

" What If I loved you? "I asked. 

" Huh? "

Is time I Been bottling up my feelings for too long... I have to tell him..
"I love you kiyo.. I love you to a  point I wanna marry you. I wanna see the world.. But I wanna see it with you. I wanna explore nature with you.. I wanna… love you… I want to wake up everyday with you beside me. A simple way to say it.. I'm a stupid 17 year old boy in love with my best friend. So korekiyo shinguji… will you be my boyfriend? 

After I said that everything went quiet. I blushed not knowing what to say.. " Well I'll be going I g-"

I felt a sudden touch on my lips.

"Mm! "

Korekiyo kissed me. Feeling his lips on mine. In shock I didn't move a inch. His lips touched mine. They were soft.. The kiss continued for about 50 seconds. 

Once he stopped he looked at me

"Well…Does that answer your question? "

We both blushed and giggled a bit. I began kissing. Him again "I'm so happy"

"I'm happy too"

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Sorry this was bad and sorry for the lazy ending I just I'm tired and I give up on life bye❤❤