comfort space | jeon wonwoo

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*new year's update? because why not hehe

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We walk into the apartment complex but then I held his arm

"Should we hang out at the park for a while?"

"You're not tired?" He looks back at me

"Um, nope. Why? Are you tired? If you're tired-" Before I could finish my line he continues to walk

"I am not tired"

Aish he is so cool.

We sat down on the square bench. I look up at the clear blue-black night sky

"Woah. It has been so long since I enjoy this night view"

I take a deep breath of the night breeze

"That day..." As I started to talk, I could feel him turn his head and look at me. I just keep looking at the glittering stars in the sky

"I have been so lonely without you. At first, I thought I was okay, but I realize I actually not. I was lonely day and night. My friends at school do keep me accompany but I still feel something lack. The emptiness. Doyun." I let out a heavy sigh

"I have a ton of people around me but losing one makes me feel so empty. Is it because the missing piece is Kim Doyun? My grades have been falling drastically. I got bad results on my tests. That really stressed me out. I got back from school, and then I was looking at the photo of Doyun and me."

"Ahh... at that time I was thinking 'should I just go to him?' 'should I just end everything too?' And at that time I realize that I am still not over him. Part of me still stuck with him. I still couldn't accept that he is gone forever. I still couldn't accept that he took his own life. I thought it is my fault that he is gone. I am not a good friend. Maybe I didn't listen to his problems well enough."

A tear escapes my eyes

"But you know" I put a big smile on my face

"I can accept it now."

"He didn't actually leave me all alone. He is here. Even though he is far away but he is here" I look at Wonwoo then back to the sky

I point out at the stars and he looks at it

"He is even shining brightly than before"

"He also left me with you" I look at him

"Wonwoo-yah" He then turns to look at me

"Thank you" That is the most sincere thanks I have ever say in my life

"Thank you? I am more thankful to you" He looks away

"You are? But I never really do anything for you" I am confused

"You wanna know something?"

"What?"

"Actually, that time when you eat at the restaurant with Doyun, that is not the first time I saw you"

"Eh? Did you really stalk me? Ah! You're creepy!" I look at him as my eyebrow furrowed

"No, I'm not. Why would I stalk you? Well, I mean like, you are so loud that everyone in this building might know you as well"

"Me? Loud?" I say in disbelief. He just calls me loud?

"Yes, you are. You always play with the children in the evening. But I think you are more excited than them. I mean, your laugh and scream could be heard until my house."

- flashback -

I am doing some studying but then I heard a scream from below. I go out to the balcony, I thought there is a danger or what. But as I look down, a girl is playing with little kids. She is playing as...Monster? She dressed weirdly which make me burst out a laugh. I looked around and other people also came out to their balcony to see what's happening. Some of them laugh at her and some of them are annoyed because she is too loud.