mafias world [yoongi×mafia reader]

Chapter 20: trauma

Y/n POV:
I went into the bathroom to clean myself off today was a rough day per say well for jisoo it was.. I look at myself in the mirror and stare for a while, I was then brought back to reality once I heard the bathroom door open,I look from the mirror and see it's yoongi, I smile and turn around and walk towards him and hug him while he hugs me back, I sigh melting into his hug.

"Hey y/n I need to talk to you for a sec" I frown and look at him he looks serious so I nod and went out the bathroom to sit on the bed and he follows.

"What is it you want to talk about yoongs?" I say and he looks at me.

"Um...well you have been acting a little different the past few days" I raise an eyebrow to him.

"Okay?? I'm pregnant of course I'll be moody" I say and he shakes his head.

"No not that kind of different i mean you have been more... uh" I look at him waiting for him to finish.

"Well? More what?! Spit it out already" I say getting impatient and annoyed"

"Meaner you have been more meaner and vicious then usual y/n" I- bro did he forget I'm apart of the mafia or something.

"I- last time I checked I'm apart of the second most worst mafia group in the whole of Korea" I say as I roll my eyes.

"I know y/n but you weren't as vicious as you were when I first met you, you always took care of everyone and the only time you fight back is when you or you family get hurt you were quite gentle but now... you're...different" I frown at him,different?! What the fuck is that suppose to mean!?.

"Excuse me what the fuck is that suppose to mean?!" I grew irritated and he sure as hell noticed.

"Y/n I mean in a way that you are with people you almost beat jisoo half to death that's not like you at all I mean yea she is a bitch and she betrayed you but I thought you would just threaten her and leave it at that" is this prick serious!? She almost killed me and the baby what the fuck.

"Are you actually sticking up for this bitch she tried to kill me and the baby twice I have a right to do whatever I want to whomever I want WHEN EVER I want. If you care so fucking much about her then leave you pissed me off enough" I say standing up about to walk then I felt a grip on my wrist.

"Y/n I DONT care about her could care less about her but this isn't you because your sister Jennie noticed that this isn't you. Do you realise how worried she is for you what the hell made you be like this!?" He says and flashbacks of myself five years ago came running through my mind, my parents dying, being betrayed,tortured emotionally by my father to make me stronger just everything that happened to me just bursting into anger. I turn towards yoongi with fire in my eyes. As I now grip his wrist. He winces

"You want to know why I'm like this huh!? You want to know everything about me THE TAUMA AND TORMENT I HAD TO GO THROUGH I HAVE A RIGHT TO JUST KILL HER RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I CAN I AM MY OWN FUCKING WOMAN JENNIE KNOWS WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF IF SHE WAS WORRIED WHY DIDNT SHE JUST COME TO ME?!" I burst out my anger as yoongi flinches back shocked at my outburst.

"Y-y/n calm down I didn't mean to intrude your past like that just let me help you"I breathe heavily and stare dead into his eyes.

"I kill and hurt people I'm apart of a mafia it's what I do why is it bothering you guys now that I'm beating jisoo half to death she should be lucky she isn't dead cause she sure as hell would be but tormenting is just to fun for me to stop" i say smiling wickedly at him and he backs off. Immediately I felt like I was in a age unable to control anything I felt stuck I was looking at my self.

"Y/n? What's wrong with you" I hear him but I was trapped in the memories of my trauma. My fist clench and I crack my neck.

"If you don't let me continue what I do....I'm just going to have to kill you" I hear my self saying.