Him & I (Jjk°Kth)

Chapter 5[M]

Conflicted. Taehyung felt extremely conflicted by the churning turmoil of ambivalence inside his guts. His mind was getting foggy with his overwhelming emotions as he sat at the edge of voracious pleasure. The person sitting infront of him was always like a brother to him. Or was he ever? Everything he ever believed, or everything he ever felt. He's questioning it all now. But why is he not astounded? How can he be when it has always been this way. It was him who possessed more experience of surviving in this harsh world. But it was always the younger who has been in charge. Jungkook knew and embraced this. He knew that Taehyung will do everything that he tells him too. If he told him to jump, then Taehyung will ask him how high.

Jungkook has always been Taehyung's weakness and the elder has never hesitated in accepting this. He's his downfall and he's also his vanquish. Jungkook has always been good with manipulation and persuasion. It was one of his charms Taehyung would say. When they were kids he used his cute persona to get his way. As they grew up he helped them in running away, saving and freeing them from their torturous life. Making him even more dependent on the latter. That's exactly what the younger wanted. He wanted to be the only person that Taehyung could count on. And that he was. Taehyung lived for Jungkook and he could die for Jungkook. This is not cause he loved the younger. At least not in a romantic way.

Love is frightening and toxic. It can turn your closest of friends into your biggest enemies. Love can take different shape and form. Obsession, jealousy, dependence. Love can ruin everything. And this was why Taehyung never wanted to taint their relationship with the word called love. He doesn't want to ruin it all. Intimacy will give birth to passion, passion can turn into an addiction, and being addicted to each other will give them a notion of being in love. Taehyung had seen the way Jungkook looked at him. He had seen the lust and desire in his eyes and sometimes in the dark with no one to catch him, he reciprocated that desire. Taehyung never planned to act on it. But today Jungkook did. And Taehyung can never say no to Jungkook. Especially when his mind is clouded with intense pleasure.

If Taehyung is a dancer then Jungkook is the song that controls his body.

Taehyung nods his head as he understood what he was supposed to do. He takes the sex toy in his hand as he feels the liquid silicon in his grasp, that was soft to touch. He wondered if Jungkook has ever used this before. Taehyung never knew that Jungkook was bisexual. But if he was so good at giving heads then it was pretty normal to assume at he had experience. Though he has never seen a boy in Jungkook's personal room. Did he fuck them in secrecy? The idea of Jungkook, going between a man's leg completely repulsed and enraged him. No paramours are deserving enough to have his Jungkook bow down for them. It should always be him in the receiving end not the other way around.

Taehyung tightly clasped the dildo in his hand as he positioned it in Jungkook's entrance. It was small and unstretched unlike the girls he would fuck. It also wasn't wet so that it would provide the natural lubrication. And so he retracted his hand that held the sex toy.

"It won't go in so easily Jungkook. It'll hurt too much." Jungkook chuckled at his words as he sat up to get closer to the younger.

"You're right it won't." Taehyung looked perplexed at his statement. If he knew that it won't go in then why did he give it to him?

"Suck it for me." Jungkook instructed him, making a shiver run down his spine. Until yesterday even the idea of being with a man disgusted him and here he was, naked in a room with Jungkook, having experienced the best fellatio of his life. But what makes everything different is the man who's next to him. He's still too shocked about everything that's happening, but the desire to please him is stronger. Much more stronger.

Jungkook asked him to jump and he's already standing on a trampoline.

"I..I don't know how. I've never before..." Taehyung trailed off and Jungkook immediately cut him off. Inching closer so that his warm breath that fans his face will erase every thought of sanity.