sub jisung !

⚠️vulnerability(nsx)

jibin
angsty but soft, confession!
tw! self harm, mentions of household kinda?
(chptr inspo: a march into water - ptv)

"j-jisung?"  

"oh jisung-"

"jisung"

"..."

every other day on. jisung would show up at changbin's door; his hair messy, baggy clothing covering every inch of his body and a box of bandaids with tears running down his face.

changbin doesnt know the exact reason why he always comes to him, but he does.

he knows jisung more than he knows himself. he knows about things that happen at home. he knows about his insecurities. to anyone else, they would be surprised that the boy would feel so lowly about himself. he acted cocky. but changbin knew everyone had insecurities.

and most importantly,

he knew how vulnerable jisung was.

in anyone else's arms, they would take that as an advantage.

but not changbin

thats why he was jisung's first.

the cries and sobs filled changbin's ear. he hated seeing the younger like this, it really hurts him. he took jisung in his lap, rubbing his back and would leave light kisses on his face.

" 'm sorry i-i know i promise bu-" the younger cried out before a 'shh' cut him off.

"its okay ji, its all going to be okay"

jisung could hear the pain in his voice. although he kept a smile in reassurance, he felt like a burden.

of course he wasn't

all changbin wanted, was him to be safe. he wants him to be happy. he wants him to have a future and make a family. maybe even with him. but he's afraid that he's not enough. afraid that this might be the last day he sees jisung.

jisung's head would rest on changbin's shoulder, with his hands hooking around his neck. as the older would treat his cuts on his thighs, the boy would trace out pictures on his chest.

he winced and whimpered at the sting, holding onto changbin as tight as he can.

"you're doing so good darling, just a couple more okay?" the shorter praised, making jisung melt. he nodded letting out a tiny 'ok' poking the other's neck.

changbin froze. he felt a pair of lips being pressed against his neck.

was this actually happening? no no maybe in was an accident or-

he shook himself out of his thoughts and put the last bandage on.

jisung's hot tongue pressed against the other's neck, trapping his skin between his teeth. he left multiple marks, as changbin held his hand.

"hyung.. i-i really love you" the younger whispered straddling his lap slowly. changbin smiled with true joy, holding the boy's head in his hands. "i love you more."

the older raised the boy's arm to his lips, kissing every scar left. a tear ran down jisung's cheek watching the other.

he made him feel pretty and worthy. jisung would not know what to do without. he is perfect.

"stay here with me, jisung. please" changbin pleaded, pressing his forehead against the younger's.

jisung sniffed, relaxing his hands on the brunettes shoulders. "okay" he whispered, nodding.