𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐚𝐲? | 𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃

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jihoon shook his head as he watched two of his drunk roomates sprawled across the living room.

well it was jeonghan's idea to have a 'small drink' with they but ended up buying another 20 bottles of soju.

chan was on top of the older who keeps on whispering to him which chan would respond a chuckle.

jihoon sighed then started picking up the bottles.

mingyu who didn't drink was also helping the older to clean up their apartment, they silently cleared up the room and luckily the two was able to sleep after they settled them onto their shared bedroom.

the two was left standing on the terrace enjoying the wind that hit their faces sending calmness and relaxation.

jihoon was holding a can of beer as he leant onto the railing, the taller was just standing plainly not so far from him hands in his pocket.

uncomfortable with the silence jihoon sparked up a conversation.

"how long has it been?" he asked not looking onto mingyu's face but at the darkness of the sky, no stars just the moon.

"how long what?"

"how long have you been courting me again?" jihoon sipped his beer as he sighed,the flashbacks showing inside his head.

how they were so deeply madly in love with each other.

how jihoon held mingyu like he was the only person who can make him happy and contented.

how his heart would beat three million times in a second.

those were happy experiences he had when he loved mingyu, when he was with mingyu.

"will be a year around the corner i guess" (a/n: sana ol nililigawan ng isang taon putangina ala ako jowa send girlfriend ples)

mingyu smiled to himself bitterly, how he still have hopes with jihoon after what he's done to him, after all the pain he caused him.

cause he knows deep inside jihoon lives in mingyu, and he can never survive a day without remembering jihoon nor saying his name.

this happened even after they broke up, even if mingyu was with someone else.

he would murmur jihoon's name in his sleep as what his boyfriend says, he would randomly think of jihoon when he sees his favorites, when he cross their favorite date place.

everywhere was jihoon for the last couple of years.

"do i still have a chance though?" mingyu softly says also copying jihoon to lean on the cold railings, as he recalls the good old days.

jihoon was silenced,

a part of him longs for mingyu.

a part of him wants someone else.

he sighed, his mind getting blurry and his heart aching.

wouldn't it be good to give mingyu a second chance? give him another shot? mingyu has always been there regretting everything he's done but why can't jihoon do it?

he didn't have the courage to push.

he doesn't know why.

"i know the answer don't bother, i heard chan and jeonghan hyung talking" mingyu smiled as if karma just taken it's place one last time to hurt him again.

"w-what?"

"you like the tough guy, i know him he's member of the school students council choi seungcheol" mingyu said his voice breaking at the end.

"i know one you made up your mind you cannot change it jihoon but i wanna say this before this night ends"

mingyu faced him as he stared at jihoon's eyes begging to be loved by him again.

"i regretted everything i've caused and i know it's hard to just start over again... "

"i don't want to give up even though i know you just like him, but i don't want to assume that you still love me"

mingyu sighed as he broke into a smile, a single tear escaped his eye.

"but from what i've heard from everybody else, it pushes me to give up on you. baby i don't want to lose you again even if we're just.... friends right now"

baby, he still has that habit.

the habit of calling him different sweet names, a habit of calling him everywhere.

maybe that's why mingyu never forgot jihoon because

it's a habit of calling his name, everywhere.

jihoon broke into a smile slowly approaching the taller and engulfed him into a warm friendly hug.

"i still love you mingyu" jihoon whispers as he smiles.

mingyu's eyes widen, his world coming back to pieces until it turns to ashes once again.

"but as a friend, maybe best friend? you are the one who knows me the best" jihoon giggled as mingyu smiled to himself while taking a mental note.

never assume, never fall again.

he has decided to move on.

"i think we're better off best friends ji" mingyu smiled as he tighten the hug sniffing jihoon's scent one last time.

"i'll always be here to help you gyugyu" jihoon chuckled as mingyu whined.

he pretends to hate it but loves it deep inside.

"so i'm friends with seungcheol lemme get you to talk to him, i know you're shy"

"mingyu stop that"

"yieeee jihooniee has a crush on seungcheolliee"

"kim mingyu!"

"okay okay i'll stop"

mingyu is taking one big step to reality even though it hurts his soul, heart, body and mind.

as long as he has jihoon, as long as jihoon is smiling.

as long as he lives seeing jihoon.

it's alright with mingyu.